Place for my heart

There's a place that i need to go,
A place that i would like to call home,
With the dark sky and stars as my roof,
The hard rock as my pillow,
Along with the wet earth as my mattress.

There's a place that i want to stay,
A place where i would run away,
With clean river flowing thoroughly,
The wild flowers sways back and forth,
The oldest tree that protect me from heat,
Along with the sound of bugs as my MP3.

There's a place that i've been missing,
Where i would find my Daisy,
The love of my life that i trusted,
My everything that i ever dream of,
The one who will protect and embrace me from my fear,
Along with the one who will see me as one of his.

Silent Pain

Somehow i wonder if they ever notice it,
Notice how mother is hurting,
Disappointed and tearing heart that i see on her face,
I wonder is they realize it,
How they treat while thinking it was for the sake of her,
But nonetheless they have forgotten about it long time ago,
I had to wonder why it is happening,
Was it because the love or the rebellious mind that made them forgot,
They forgot that mother did exist next to them.

I wonder did they see,
They sadness in the parent's eyes but still putting hope,
As the sons and daughters assume they are happy,
But when the time pass by,
I wonder if they ever notice,
Those wrinkles at their eyes are actually tears that they shed,
Pain that they kept,
A sigh of disappointment with a glint of hope keeps on wavering,
As they live in their very own life while supporting each other,
Talking how their children have forgotten them,
When money overruled the children mind.

I still wonder for today,
Did any of the child take their parent's hand,
Take and hold them to assure their hopes,
Even among 5 of the daughters, sons and there's only one that can rely upon to,
I wonder if someone is out there to hear their pain and relieves them,
Cause parent are not the people who you can hurt,
Not who you can forget,
And most important of all,
Not someone who you can replace,
I wonder if they did ever think,
How they are hurting inside but trying to be happy,
Just for the sake of their children,
They still have to sacrifice their hopes even when the children are old.

Pain

The throbbing pain that everyone feels,
I can feel it to,
No matter how young i am,
How immature i am,
Sooner or later i will feel the same,
It hurt,
Yes, i do know as much,
The feeling of wanting to cry,
Pain in your chest,
The sudden heavy burden that you felt,
I do feel it too,
No matter how old i am,
Sooner or later i too will feel it.

Time has pass by,
Where my eyes are open,
With what the world taught me to do,
Just to survive the madness of the people,
I too feel the pain,
And there you're sitting there,
While folding the clothes,
Telling me your pain is much deeper than mine,
With only the very word,
I just felt the deepest cut onto my hurt,
Along with the pain that i didn't tell nor couldn't share,
I felt it for a long time,
Causing me speechless and just watch you folding the clothe,
While i hear another hurtful word that come out from you,
The shattered heart started to shatter again,
Just when i thought i wouldn't be so fragile,
I start feeling the same pain again.

There and just there i start to wonder,
Did you ever remember me as your daughter,
The only black sheep in the family who has been there for you,
The only one whose trying so hard not to hurt you,
I wonder if you ever see me,
See me and remember me well in your deepest heart,
While i struggle to gain your attention,
Just because the faith that you put onto my sister has lost,
Shouldn't i be given a chance to give you a new meaning?
I wonder about that,
Wondering and just wondering,
If you ever notice that my heart is breaking the moment you say that,
I, who was listening to your pain and disappointment,
Felt the hurt long time ago,
When i heard another breaking matter,
The smile that i try to do,
Kept on losing it's own feeling.


I was there when you needed me,
No matter how far i've gone to,
I'm always there just for you,
For you to bash your anger,
Your disappointment and along with your pain,
But then on this very night,
I realize you never saw me that time,
Each time i try to console you,
You never realize it was me,
It hurt,
Right here,
This very fragile heart of mine,
Seems to lost its shape again,
Unlike you who have someone to listen to,
I wonder on this very note in my hand,
Crying out the pain that i felt,
Without a shoulder to cry on.

If Someone is Watching

I wonder if someone is watching,
While i walk in the bookstore,
Searching happily for my favourite novels,
Laughing to myself when i had found it,
Talking to myself when i couldn't make a decision,
Standing there and staring the books on my hand,
Thinking which one should i get,
I wonder if someone notice it,
If there is,
Please don't let me be alone.

I wonder if someone is watching,
While i went to the restaurant and eating my favourite meal,
Sitting there just daydreaming,
Sometimes watching other people's reaction,
Smile to myself when i found it to be funny,
Just sitting there for a piece of my mind,
I wonder if someone notice it,
If there is,
Please lend me your shoulder if i do cry.

From my favourite view

I still hear love song from now and then,
No matter how hurt love made me,
I still want to believe it someday,
I might not love the man i trust anymore,
But i shall lead my love to a better way.

I still write the love story that i like,
Thinking about how it would be nice if it were me,
It was just a story that i tend to borrow to float,
With my wildest prince i conquer the pain,
But then it was the story that i wrote,
I tend to get back on the ground.

I still read my favourite historical romance,
Trying my hardest just to find Alec Kincaid,
The arrogant, blunt and warrior of him,
The him who shows his affection throughout my eyes,
But it was the novel that i love,
I feel like giving up romance.

For the small room

In this little room i let a small hole to enter the light,
Let there be light in the gloomy room,
Just for me to breathe again and see the whole world,
There from that tiny hole i peek onto,
Seeing happiness as well as sadness,
I back up a little bit and reach my very treasure,
As i wrote another thing or two about the world revolve around me,
From there i start writing while wondering what would happen then,
Will it be a sad ending that i despise the most,
Or would it be the great ending that i miss so much.

I'm Fine

I'm fine like i always said,
But i keep on limping as the pain starts throbbing,
I keep on walking though it's still miles away,
I try to fasten my footsteps,
But the pain threatens to slow me down,
Sweats of hurt rolling onto my cheek,
Some might have thought it was the tears all along,
But i refuse to make any comment,
I'm okay i said,
And they start to back up and give me way,
I'm fine like i always said,
But the pain leaves me limping.

I'm fine like i always said,
As i start finding for a stick or part of trees to be my third leg,
Climbing the slippery hills as keep on climbing,
I'm starting to suffer for more and more,
I want to cry if i could,
I want to stop if i could,
I want to shout if only i could,
This pain starts to spread elsewhere,
As i keep climbing it turns out the slippery track push me down again,
As if not wanting me to go on,
I clenched my teeth to hold the pain,
But it turn out the pain on my leg is not there anymore,
I'm starting to feel the pain in my very heart,
I'm fine like i always said,
But the pain leaves me cold at night.

I'm fine like i always said,
As i struggle with the slippery track again,
This time i have every intention to challenge it,
Forgetting about the pain for a moment as i climb again,
But again it throws me away making my leg throb as well as my heart,
I look up as a hand was hold up for me,
Telling me to cry if it hurt,
Yell if i needed help,
And lean my people's shoulder for every now and then,
One by one drops of tears starts flowing,
As he lend me the shoulder that i needed,
And hold me up and let him do the walking instead,
As we climb up together,
I finally see the place that i wanted,
I'm fine like i always said,
For i have him now holding me tightly.