It's Cold

If i could not write any longer,
Of feelings that i truly felt,
Will i still be able to reach your heart even then,
For i could no longer feel the warmth that i love,
It's cold my love,
With this crumpled notes that i had in my hand,
Trying as much as i want to tell you I love you,
You wouldn't listen nor wouldn't want to know,
It's cold my love,
Even in this house together with you,
I hope you come to know through my eyes,
I won't cry and i won't beg,
But if you do go and never come back,
I won't ask you to stay.

Longing to say the words that you wanted to hear,
Could you not see it from the cappucino that i gave you,
From every food that i put my all heart out,
This warmth in my heart that i always have from you,
I put it all and give a lot more in ever action that can speak,
It's cold my love,
When you are not here next to me,
As i won't tell you the truth,
But i have always tell you when you're asleep,
Next to me as i kiss your forehead,
Hug you in my sleep and misses you when my eyes close,
It's cold my love,
When i could not tell you what you wanted to hear when you wanted it,
I could only kiss you close to your heart.

As Storm Pass By

Has the storm finally subside?
Of what is left the damage that awaits,
Has it finally left for me to continue,
Or was it just a start for me to be stronger,
I dare you until the end,
But humble as i am respect the life that were gifted,
And if there is more storm to come,
I'll face it with my very little power,
To be able to stand and see to the damage.

I'll be their pillar for them to stand,
I want to be that kind of person when the storm leave,
But i shall not boast of how strong i am,
As i am weak and needed a shoulder to hold onto,
And as i gave them my strength they tend to give me new meaning,
With that i stand firmly and lend them my hand,
Again and again without failed,
As i help them, they help me,
With this we stay strong and stay intact.

Dream of Yesterday

All the non-sense thing that i spoke of yesterday,

Shall i be the one to prove it to you one day,

Though it may sound so big and impossible,

As for the likes of me that you have not seen yet,

Granted the power for me to fulfilled,

Of words that you hardly believe,

This side of mine that i want you to see,

Far more to believe,

And that one day i shall make you believe it to be true.

There are no dream to small like mine,

Nor the freedom that you can never thought of,

I am in the path of that,

With sacrifice of time and burden i come this far,

Nevertheless i ought to sigh,

Of the matter that i now see so small,

I have come to this step ahead of my time,

When i force my way to let the world to see me,

Not the glory that i ever yearn,

This is just a dream of mine,

And that dream is never too late for anything despite my age.

I shall not regret i shall not despair,

Of the time i have rested it will be gone,

This is my path that i never waver,

For it to be my only and my only one purpose,

Yet the people care i might miss them around me,

Worry not for this is me and i will make it for you,

Is there not a reason for me to loiter around with my loves one,

The hectic of the life that i led shall not hinder me from what i treasure,

I am me and this is my power,

My power in my dream and the power that i do not lust,

I have learn it without greed.

My Answer

My thoughts of you should never be beautiful,
As i see you so much more than what others saw,
Then why is it i seem to care for you and notice the you inside,
I should not let my art eye to look into your heart,
But with the gift that i have i am unable to avoid,
Of looking at your pain while reaching out for you,
And thus together like i have always know,
Suffer the same and happy the same,
Why is it i can not turn away and just walk ahead,
Like i always do but drop a little bit of hint,
When it comes to you i had to hold you so tightly,
Without knowing hold you very dearly,
In this heart of mine you sneak in your way like you always do,
Indeed i refuse to admit,
Flower that i did not bother to take care of nor fertilize,
Bloom ever so beautifully just like you in that heart of yours,
I am attached to you by the undefined bond.

I should not see you so attractive,
With the face that could scare people around you,
The harshness that ought to be as sharp as blade,
The you that people fear i become so attached,
So natural just to show you this tears of mine,
Surprisingly so you calm me down,
I thought of you when you're so far away,
To you i want so much and longed for,
My dear heart of mine plays trick that i can never guess,
Nor should i understand the meaning all behind,
Tell me the person who holds the key,
Have i fallen for you despite of who you are,
For i see you ever so shiningly and lovingly,
You care for me and hold me so much close,
This dear person of mine i understand it finally,
I LOVE YOU and DO YOU LOVE ME?

Husband Beliefs

If within this bare hands i can make you stay,
I'll not chase after glory nor power to hold you,
Deep in this heart of mine i have loved you,
To the day i put a ring onto that finger of yours i vow upon The Almighty,
Let this little wife of mine love YOU more than she love me,
For i want to be this husband who lead her to your path,
Your religion and within your road,
I want this oath of mine to protect her from lust that blinded others,
Y' Allah The Almighty,
For i am your humble servant,
And i too want to die in your right path.

Smile, Frail Heart

This pain is unbearable,
I pray for myself to be stronger,
More and more,
Although it may sounds greedy,
But please listen to me,
For i do not want to lose my sanity,
Not yet and not ever,
So by then i'll pray to The Almighty Allah,
To give me the strength to fight back this tears,
This pain,
This fragile heart,
So i may smile once more the day after tomorrow.

To be torn bits by bits,
Pieces by pieces after the mending begun,
I could not control of my own heavy heart,
Of the misty eyes that threatens me once more,
Please don't let me cry this heart of mine,
Just bear with me until i am stronger again,
Swallow the bitterness until i am mended,
A little bit more or probably longer,
I ask this frail heart of mine the same thing,
As the tortures begins again,
Repetitively i am tormenting myself,
Smile you just a little bit more,
And i'll smile again somehow.

I Forgive

Forever to be in misery,
Why the despair,
When i could reach my own happiness,
Not that i forget more likely i forgive,
And somehow time makes it magic,
Like the twirling wand that fairies have,
I seem not to remember a tiny bit of you.

The image are blurry,
But by that name i know you are my friend,
I wonder what cause of my heartbreaking that i could not remember,
The you who tries as your hardest giving me every sign,
Like i have said,
I did not forget but i forgive,
And yes my dear friend,
It seems there are certain wall are protecting me from remember.

It was not you whom i forgive,
But it was your friend that did to my heart,
Magically enough i could not remember you as well,
Your face are blurry when i try to recall,
And the heart that i knew i could not remember as well,
It was the event that is happening as i open the Pandora Box,
Not that i seem to forget until now i forgive,
And just like that i had to meet you like the first time again.