Unkept promises and betrayal

If those hurtful feelings can be seen,
i wouldn't have to lie continuosly,
but wouldn't it be better for someone to see it,
at least i know someone acknowledge me.

There are certain reason why i treat my family just a family.
- betrayal
- unkept promises

I may not be a bright child but without them realizing it, i understand a promise is something to be keep and don't betray the trust. i understand these two things and this are the reasons why i only treat them as my family but not as my best friend. if one of my family members do read this, i just want to say i never forget the promises or even how they betray my trust to them. we are just a family and nothing more. thats why they never get to know me better.

When i keep my mouth shut,
it doesn't mean i have nothing to say,
but will you be able to stop and listen for a while?
when you never open your heart.

When i'm angry or upset,
have you ever notice what really cause it?
yet, you never ask the real matter,
but just put the blame on me.

When i was all alone out there,
did you ever thought to be there for me?
instead of thinking the worst of me,
could you at least hold out your hand.

Will you able to see the real me?
when you never reach out for me,
for how much longer i have to suffer,
until you finally hear me out.

i might been called ungrateful child or someone who can't see the love from her own family. i can see alright. i know they love me but yet they never try to get to know me better. i'm grateful to be brought up but when it comes to who i am, they haven't had an answer. my friends know me better than them cause that's when my guards are down. someday, they will see the real me. i'll make them see. that's why i'm doing something for them to see. it will be choas but worth it.