Letter to My Family (Mom)

Dear Mom,
I love you from the very start,
From the day that i was born,
It was 6th of August was it not?
I cry as i enter your world and weigh more than any of other members,
You used to say i weigh like an child who already 1 year old,
Still you hold me and protect me from all the harm,
I love you for that,
My first step it wasn't easy,
I must have been into mischief,
But i was curious to grow up and wanting to know everything,
As time pass by,
I went to school,
Though i wanted to go to school that much,
I cry so hard on my first day,
Suddenly i become homesick,
And still i go on with my study,
I was a cry baby wasn't i?
But i got it through.
I shouldn't have grow up so quickly,
I shouldn't have...
I was in 1st grade where i remember your promise,
" If you get 1st place in class, mommy will give you a present."
You said with a smile,
And i study my hardest and look forward for your present,
I did got 1st place mom but it turns out you were mad at me,
I still don't understand why up until now,
But i still hold onto your promise,
I'm 22 now and i can't cry anymore to beg your attention,
I can't scream anymore to say i'm sad and angry,
I can't do that any longer,
It was hard mom and i don't want to grow up,
But i had to while i hold onto your promises,
One promise that you made with me has become promises that i'm keeping,
Mom,
If only you can see it.