Once Me

REMEMBER HOW I ONCE SAID,
I AM BUT A HEARTBREAKING SONG,
THOUGH MY LIFE FROM FAR ARE COLOURFUL,
THUS WHY THIS HEART OF MINE CHOSE CLOUDY DAY,
OF ALL THE SUN AND STARS THEY TALK ABOUT,
I SEE RAIN AND THUNDER AS A HIDING PLACE,
NO BRIGHTER SKY COULD COVER UP THE DARK NIGHT,
FOR ALL THE TIME,
ALL THE HOUR, MINUTES, SECONDS WERE COUNTED,
THEY SAW NOTHING BUT A SMILE AND LAUGHTER,
IS THAT ALL TO THAT, DEAR ME?
SHE LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER,
JUST LIKE THE INNOCENT CHILD WHO ONLY SLEEPS,
JUST LIKE THEM HAVING NO WORRIES.

REMEMBER THAT ONCE I TOLD THEM I HATE HOT WEATHER,
FOR IT COULD ONLY MELT ANY HEART THAT I FELT,
I PRETEND TO BE BLIND,
WHEN IN THE END I HELD MY HAND UP,
TO BE THE ONLY PERSON TO BE BLAME,
I FOR ONCE NEVER DID MOURN MY DEPRESSION,
SINCE I PREFER TO JUST SMILE HAPPILY THROUGHOUT FORCE,
IT WAS NOT A TORTURING THING TO DO,
JUST TAKE A DEEP BREATHE INSIDE,
LET IT GO WHEN YOU FEEL READY,
CAUSE I HAVE PROMISE MYSELF TO JUST KEEP ON GOING,
FOR LIVING IN THIS LIFE HAS NEVER BEEN CRUEL,
IT IS THE PATH THAT I TAKE LEADS THE WAY.

REMEMBER HOW I ONCE PREFER BEING ALONE,
SOME MIGHT HAVE BEEN HURT BY MY ACTION,
I HAVE SEEN THE EYE AND THE TEAR,
IGNORANCE HAS BEEN CREEPING UP WITHIN ME,
FOR I WANT TO CRY ALL I WANT,
LETTING THIS ANGER OF MINE LEAVE ME BEHIND,
FOR I LOVE THE PEOPLE AROUND ME THOUGH ITS PAINFUL,
SHOULD I GIVE UP THEIR LOVE TOWARDS ME,
THEN WHAT ARE MY REASONS TO LIVE AFTER THAT?
FOR IT SEEMS LIKE FOREVER THRISTING FOR THEIR HAND,
I COULD NEVER COMPLAINT THOUGH I VOICE OUT SOMETIMES,
I AM BUT IMPERFECT HUMAN BEING,
CAUSE THERE ARE TIMES I FELT LIKE TODAY WOULD BE MY LAST.

REMEMBER WHEN I TOLD YOU I HAVE A SECRET?
HOW I WANTED TO SHARE IT WITH YOU WITHOUT BEING THROWN OUT,
LOSING MY PRECIOUS YOU SEEMS LIKE THE BLADE THAT OUGHT TO STAB ME IN THE HEART,
SO HOW SHOULD I TALK TO YOU AND TELL YOU ALL THAT,
KNOWING THAT I CHOSE A DIFFERENT PATH,
WHERE EVERY DREAMS THAT I HOLD,
I CHANGED IT INTO RELEASING MYSELF,
I SURRENDER IN THIS PATH THAT I TOOK,
SO IN THE END I WOULD SUFFER LIKE I DO RIGHT NOW,
TO FULFILL YOUR EVERY DREAM AND LIVE IT IN YOUR MEMORIES.

REMEMBER HOW I ONCE SAID I LIE SO MANY TIMES,
HOW THEY BELIEVE IN EVERY WORD I SAID,
HOW THEY DISBELIEF THE WORD FROM TRUTH,
IT IS ONCE BEING WARNED,
BY THE MOST DANGEROUS POINT THAT ONE NEVER THINK OF,
SEE HOW SLY I AM THROUGH THERE,
THIS HEART OF MINE TAINTED BY THOSE LIE,
FOR THE BLACK MEMORY THAT I LEARN FROM PAST,
I STAND TALL AGAIN BUT ON THE WRONG FOOT,
SINCE FALLING IS NOT A THREAT TOWARD ME AGAIN,
LOOK WHAT HAPPEN WHEN NO ONE LOOKS AROUND,
I GAIN THE POWER TO CONTROL MYSELF,
AND BECOME THE POWERFUL ACTRESS WITHOUT ANYONE SEEING.




FOREVER REMEMBERING AND FOREVER LYING,
DID I EVER LIE TO YOU MOM?
DID I EVER LIE TO YOU DAD?
DID I EVER LIE TO YOU MY DEAR SISTERS?
IT IS A PUZZLE THAT SOME MIGHT WONDER,
SINCE THE WAY I AM WITH YOU,
ARE NEVER THE SAME WITH THE WAY I AM WITH THEM,
FOR IT IS A SECRET THAT I WOULD NEVER TELL,
NOT EVEN THEM OR YOU,
THIS IS HOW I AM LIVING,
I LAUGH WHEN I CRY,
I SMILE WHEN I FEEL SAD,
ANGER, DEPRESSED, DECEPTION, BETRAYED, FRUSTRATED,
(grin) I’LL JUST HAVE TO KEEP ON SMILING.
FOR YOUR LIFE IS IMPORTANT,
AND SO DOES YOUR HEART,
I’LL ALWAYS LOOK AFTER THAT HEART OF YOURS.