It Has Been the Same

" I'll make you, your favourite food"
I've heard of it before,
It sounds so familiar and the last time i heard it,
Made my heart flutters,
But in just one second it tears up my whole heart,
Crashing it over and over again,
I know i should never lose hope,
But how can i keep doing so when it all comes in vain.

I was mad for the first time it happen,
Every year i dealt with the same thing,
The same line that i heard but only the venue was different,
The event was differ as well,
Yes, it put on a smile on me every year,
But as the time gets near,
There's always excuse running in my ear,
Stares that i got from others,
And all thats left for me,
Is nothing but a shattered heart again and again.

Is it wrong of me to say i'm not putting it into hope anymore?
The me who never learn her lesson for a long time has finally learnt it,
But then all i hear is your heart cracking,
What exactly do i have to do?
I who have waited years of the simple thing,
Have to work so hard to make you see me,
But as always,
You skip the one in front of you and move on to others,
How can i keep on going if i keep on hoping?
For a favourite food that i longed for,
I have waited so many years and keep on meding this heart of mine,
So tell me,
Is it wrong for me to lose hope for only this time of the year?