Time that i owe.

I hunger the time for myself,
Seldom people see me rushing out with no reason,
There's always tomorrow what they said,
But for me,
I sometimes fear of what future give for me,
Is it the news that constantly becomes my greatest fear,
Or is it the day that i never open my eye again,
I am not that afraid,
I am just trying to give the present that i promise,
The one that i love and cherished,
For this certain reasons,
I want the time for myself.

The forever ticking minutes i refuse to count,
It only matters what have i done for the whole day,
Did i mend the pieces of my broken heart,
Ask forgiveness and forgave those that come and go,
Any more debt that i haven't paid in money or promises,
I was not looking back when i remember all this,
It was just a completion to deal with before i go,
Or before that time really comes,
I just want to be where i feel the happiest without any burden,
Just solving the matters and leave it behind,
With that i am happy for being selfish with the time of my own.