In Love With Him

Could it be love that i wanted,
But if that love were to know about my past,
Can i still have and be greedy with the love now,
I can not ask for more,
But somehow it pains me.

Yes i have been making mistakes,
A sin that i myself cannot tolerate,
So what will happen if the secret is out,
Will i actually have you as my man,
Or the look that you would give just like others,
The thoughts alone pains me.

I am in love with you,
Not that i can deny it any longer,
But there this wall that i could not break,
Nor stop building,
For on the other side of that wall is your feeling that i try to protect,
The love that you thought of sacred,
I can not tell you that i too love you.

I am me,
With my past that beholds me,
Prison that i put myself in,
Every now and then i try to tell you,
But the longer it takes,
The deeper i fall into your love.

To grow up fast,
Or to be a baby forever,
One of the things that some might consider,
Wonder which will be good,
Probably being the innocent one,
Or the one who see the world.

A Married Life

Sincerely i hope and wish,
To be married and to be love,
To find the one and only,
When that day do happen,
Can i tell the whole world how happy i am,
And tell them about the gift for being a wife.

Sends my invitation,
Come to the wedding,
With the joy and tears,
I have dream about the day,
Where i happen to meet him and be love,
No matter how ugly and sizes i am,
He who chose me would happen to love me back,
And when that day happen,
Can i tell the whole world how joyful i am,
And tell them how blessed i am to be his wife.

Let the ring slid onto my ring,
By the man of my parent chose,
For i know they pray for my happiness,
Not knowing who, i vow,
No matter how hard the storm may come,
What may happen in the future,
The ups and downs of a married life,
Can i tell the whole world how happy i am,
And tell them about the love and relationship that i have with him.