In Love With Him

Could it be love that i wanted,
But if that love were to know about my past,
Can i still have and be greedy with the love now,
I can not ask for more,
But somehow it pains me.

Yes i have been making mistakes,
A sin that i myself cannot tolerate,
So what will happen if the secret is out,
Will i actually have you as my man,
Or the look that you would give just like others,
The thoughts alone pains me.

I am in love with you,
Not that i can deny it any longer,
But there this wall that i could not break,
Nor stop building,
For on the other side of that wall is your feeling that i try to protect,
The love that you thought of sacred,
I can not tell you that i too love you.

I am me,
With my past that beholds me,
Prison that i put myself in,
Every now and then i try to tell you,
But the longer it takes,
The deeper i fall into your love.