Letter to My Family (Mom)

Dear Mom,
I love you from the very start,
From the day that i was born,
It was 6th of August was it not?
I cry as i enter your world and weigh more than any of other members,
You used to say i weigh like an child who already 1 year old,
Still you hold me and protect me from all the harm,
I love you for that,
My first step it wasn't easy,
I must have been into mischief,
But i was curious to grow up and wanting to know everything,
As time pass by,
I went to school,
Though i wanted to go to school that much,
I cry so hard on my first day,
Suddenly i become homesick,
And still i go on with my study,
I was a cry baby wasn't i?
But i got it through.
I shouldn't have grow up so quickly,
I shouldn't have...
I was in 1st grade where i remember your promise,
" If you get 1st place in class, mommy will give you a present."
You said with a smile,
And i study my hardest and look forward for your present,
I did got 1st place mom but it turns out you were mad at me,
I still don't understand why up until now,
But i still hold onto your promise,
I'm 22 now and i can't cry anymore to beg your attention,
I can't scream anymore to say i'm sad and angry,
I can't do that any longer,
It was hard mom and i don't want to grow up,
But i had to while i hold onto your promises,
One promise that you made with me has become promises that i'm keeping,
Mom,
If only you can see it.

Only A Story Part II

It's raining again. Most would hated the rain except for this particular girl. She love the rain and never bother missing the sun. It has been a part of her life and she would dance around the house feeling happy altogether. It's her precious moment and she never wants it to end. But today, she went out of the house and play with the rain. She like to hear the squishing and splashing sounds that she makes every time she dances up and down. No one can take that away that moment from her. No one. Yes, no one, for now. Its her music and her life. It's part of her but as she dances around, a spark of lightning brightens the sky. She went still for a moment and rushes her way to the house. As much as she likes the rain, she never like thunder and lightning. She never like it cause its the same goes with her life. Her life that she's trying to safe. In her little world and her dreams. She will shelter it with all she might and that is not just a saying but it is a vow that she makes with herself. She is just a little girl and she manage to shelter her comfort zone. Just like the cupboard shields her eyes and her ears from the thunder and lightning, she put herself in the front line to shields her tiny space. That's what she would do but not when she is helpless. She is still an innocence child not knowing pain and mentally hurt....

P/S Well, i try to finish this story but i end up feeling sad to finish it. I'll finish it one day. It's in process.

Only A Story

This is a story that I'm about to tell but let me remind you, it is only a story. Could be true but how true it is? Heehaw...


It's raining again. Most would hated the rain except for this particular girl. She love the rain and never bother missing the sun. It has been a part of her life and she would dance around the house feeling happy altogether. It's her precious moment and she never wants it to end. But today, she went out of the house and play with the rain. She like to hear the squishing and splashing sounds that she makes every time she dances up and down. No one can take that away that moment from her. No one. Yes, no one, for now. Its her music and her life. It's part of her but as she dances around, a spark of lightning brightens the sky. She went still for a moment and rushes her way to the house. As much as she likes the rain, she never like thunder and lightning. She never like it cause its the same goes with her life. Her life that she's trying to safe.

Hey Email

Hey @yahoo,
Would you be so kind to send the news?
As fast as you can like the wind,
So that i'll be able to walk again.

Hey @gmail,
Could you possibly tell my friend,
That i need them for a shoulder to cry on,
So i could smile again.

Hey @hotmail,
Would you be able to tell my parents,
About how i needed their support and love,
Cause i'm longing for happiness.

Hey @yahoo,
Could you tell them i'm not going to be there,
I won't be seeing them anymore,
Cause i'm running away now but trying to keep in touch.

Hey @gmail,
Would you mind send the purpose of this message,
So that i can let them hear my news,
But they never care do they?

Hey @hotmail,
I'm already tired sending the email,
Can i just delete my account?
Like i delete my memory.

LIE

The first time i lie,
Lead to a happy moment and i held it tight.

Later i became addicted to lying,
In order for me to have something i wanted.

It lead to another lie of lies,
And it cause more than just happiness.

I become a professional liar,
For none could tell the truth or fake.

I try to lie less and back to honesty,
Somehow my mouth don't want to listen.

So i lead it to the truth,
Though it hurt but at least its worth it.

One lie, lead to another lie,
One that could kill someone or might be you.

Music to my ear

I'm following my music,
A sound thats calling my name,
I never open my eyes,
Cause i know i'm heading the right way.

The notes just dancing around,
Floating and teasing me all the same,
I was laughing and smiling,
For having the world all for me.

There are no words but just strings,
The key to every sounds it makes,
My hands were following it all along,
And i let myself float.

I may not be a musician,
Perfection is not everything to me,
Cause thats what life really is,
As if music is part of the world.

P/S : I make this poem while i was hearing classical music called Prelude from Bach's Cello Suite no. 1. I love the tune. It's refreshing and give hope for me.

A Journey to Tell

Take a look back and see whats behind,
Hold them together to take a new steps,
Just keep on going even if you fall,
Cause there are hands will be held.

Open up yours eyes and wake up,
Rinse your face and look again,
If you are awake and realize the deeds,
Don't regret it but keep it to your heart.

You once love and now breaking up,
If you're hurt stop giving chances,
Have a life of your own to cure the pains,
And there ought to be a Guardian Angel to protect you.

For the hopes that you had dream of,
Let it be your path to your way,
You won't lose your way for the dreams,
Cause i'll be here making the signboard.

So there goes the story beneath my journey,
I once lost, heartbroken and defeated,
But i'll share you my every pain,
Cause you never what you might get.