The Protector

There are times at night where i could not sleep,
Where my heart aches searching for that one answer,
It was an endless night,
But i realize time envies my every moment,
Cause the next thing i know it was nearly dawn.

It was a bluff when i said i could live all alone,
In truth i hate being the only place without no one beside me,
As the pain keep on creeping my every night,
How was i suppose to face another night,
When it keep on showing the cruelty of the world.

I have to stop thinking,
But it is beyond me,
As i keep on turning to have my comfort moment,
It seems impossible as the thunder, lightning and wind keep threatening,
Threatening until there are times i wish there's someone for me.

I keep on hugging my pillow tightly,
I put every pillows that i have around me,
So i wouldn't be afraid during the night,
Nor even scared of falling down,
As i keep tossing myself from a restless night.

There is nothing that i ever wish for during the night,
But the warm that i ought to feel when i'm cold,
The embrace that would protect me from the thunder and rain,
There i wonder if i'll be able to find someone,
Someone to protect my heart.

I should have been able to survive even when i'm alone,
But it does not mean anything when even the strong one will fall,
I can feel myself shattered into million pieces,
No matter how i tend not to cry,
I still needed a protector other than me.

Impossible Confession

I might can never forget all the pains,
I might can never move on,
But surprisingly i get up again,
I'm walking both on my feet,
Without any hands that were offered,
I jut keep going and starting all over again.

I might have said goodbye,
I might said hope you can find someone who love you,
But unexpectedly after all the while i was giving all of that,
I was talking about myself most of all,
I keep on reminding myself the same thing,
Until a lot of question just keep on popping in my head.

I might said i'm okay,
I might been able to go on,
But I was never moving from the same spot,
I wasn't actually doing anything but just mending,
Every day life making me confuse,
And i give my heart to someone who is far away from me.

He might don't know me,
He might don't even care about me,
I might even say it's okay,
I might said i am not worth it to be with him,
But unfortunately i feel pain more than ever before.

He's an artist and always got people's attention,
While i'm just ordinary girl out of nowhere,
It was impossible from the beginning,
That is why i decided to back off while i can,
I can only hear his enchanting voice,
And letting the winds blow so that he can hear mine too.

I might have given up,
I might have been faraway,
But i won't regret my retreat,
For it has become part of my life,
My life was impossible from the start with startling dreams.

P/S: This was actually dedicated to one of the singer/actor in Korea. I am not just a fan of him but it was actually some sort of confession. Some impossible confession. I should know where i belong.

Taking Away Love

Afterall the times that we share,
We finally end it in a good way,
It could have ended a better path,
But it seems impossible for us right now,
And now i'm living my life as freely as possible.

Don't you worry now,
Though we though it was perfect till the end,
But it is not enough to have all those happiness,
I shall pursue my happiness,
And i hope you will too.

We fought hard and even break up couple of times,
Each thought we cannot live without each other,
Not even thinking what future that we will brought,
We just thought of the fun that we had,
And we keep on having those breakdowns.

What's more to cry,
What's all these tears falling?
What's all this heartbroken?
What's all the mourning?
I'll just keep on going forward.

I thought i was falling down,
Without your love i would not live,
But i have to go on with my life,
It pains without a bandage to cover the scar,
I keep on falling and calling...

Shelter

The sound of loud thunder jarred me from my deep sleep,
It was morning yet it was raining heavily,
Thus another lightning strikes and lighten the dark cloud,
Where the moment the light vanish came the thunder to hit.

I got up from bed and switch off the fan,
I look around and see my mom pulling the plug from its socket,
I stay with her for a little while,
And there goes another thunder strike again.

Deep down inside my heart,
I prayed for a PROTECTOR to shelter me and my mom,
There's only the two of us here to shield my sister,
But then who would shield me and mom?

Raining as it is,
Thundering as loud as it can be,
As long as there's roof on top of us,
We'll keep on heading strong.

Talk of Music

Right now i'm dancing within the music,
Let it flow around me,
Although i might not understand a single word,
But still i made it personal for me.

It was a beautiful song,
Not because the handsome face that people usually crazy about,
But it is within the lyric itself,
It has caught me within a second.

If everyone is hurrying to see the singer,
I am more interested in meeting the song writer,
Not to mention the one who made the melody,
If only one day i ought to meet them.

To be continued...


P/S: I was hearing It's You song by Super Junior and that's when i wrote this. It was perfect for me.

A Tale Of Holiday

Everyone was suppose to be happy when it comes to holiday,
In every family they have been waiting long for this,
Though some might won't enjoy more than just a laughter,
It is still a holiday where each member can gather together,
A house that never been so merry,
All fill with happiness where neighbours can sense from far,
Wishing the very same thing but join their happiness as well.

It does not matter which holiday it was meant to be,
As long as i can see my sister and dad in the same couch with my mom,
They share the moment together and i fill in the empty seat,
No work to be talked about but just their own funny memories,
It is shared among us and we keep it as a part of our memory as well,
But it is more within the moment that we share at that time.

But as we were starting to be further away from each other,
Even holiday couldn't even bring us together,
I starting to miss the old way of life,
Where we just living in a modest life,
As soon as the word money grasp each hand,
They start to forget the sweet holiday that lies within.

We don't see that much laughter anymore,
My mom was suppose to rest from cooking,
It is time she had the taste of her daughter's cooking,
But then it all turns the other way round,
It breaks my heart to see my sisters way,
While my dad keeps demanding some impossible and tiring stuff.

Late night i share my mom's thoughts,
She wanted to have a holiday where everyone would gather around,
Just like it used to be,
But now everything seems impossible,
She waited at home and still doing the same thing like she does everyday.

In her thoughts she just wanted to eat outside,
Feel the luxury that her daughter just gain,
If it only a new dress and eating clamp with her daughters,
While dad will buy her anything that she wants,
So she could actually feel appreciate to her family,
But then it was nothing like that.

We seem to forget a lot nowadays,
As i watch my family falling apart,
I try to fix it with all my might,
It didn't matter how hurt i was supposed to feel,
But i just want them to remember what it was like before,
So no more the tears that are invisible to this old eyes.


P/S : I was inspired from my previous holiday that i spend with my sister in KL and it made me realize the thing that cause disaster in the next 5 or 10 years. Who knows.

We stand under the same area,
Though its far,
I can reach you if i want,
Though in my place its night and yours would be bright,
I still say we are together under the same sky.