The Protector

There are times at night where i could not sleep,
Where my heart aches searching for that one answer,
It was an endless night,
But i realize time envies my every moment,
Cause the next thing i know it was nearly dawn.

It was a bluff when i said i could live all alone,
In truth i hate being the only place without no one beside me,
As the pain keep on creeping my every night,
How was i suppose to face another night,
When it keep on showing the cruelty of the world.

I have to stop thinking,
But it is beyond me,
As i keep on turning to have my comfort moment,
It seems impossible as the thunder, lightning and wind keep threatening,
Threatening until there are times i wish there's someone for me.

I keep on hugging my pillow tightly,
I put every pillows that i have around me,
So i wouldn't be afraid during the night,
Nor even scared of falling down,
As i keep tossing myself from a restless night.

There is nothing that i ever wish for during the night,
But the warm that i ought to feel when i'm cold,
The embrace that would protect me from the thunder and rain,
There i wonder if i'll be able to find someone,
Someone to protect my heart.

I should have been able to survive even when i'm alone,
But it does not mean anything when even the strong one will fall,
I can feel myself shattered into million pieces,
No matter how i tend not to cry,
I still needed a protector other than me.