Stranger to who??

Should i tell a stranger about my chaotic mind?
When i should have told my family or friends about it,
But why is it so hard for me to tell them,
Not because i don't trust them or something,
It might have been because i know how they behave,
I prefer to listen the world of strangers.

I am not alone like i always said,
But i can't bear another long night that fill up my thoughts,
I grab hold on my handphone and like an idiot i stare at them,
Staring at the names of who i should call to help me,
And then i tend to switch off cause i can't bear to watch or hear my thoughts,
From there on i am feeling lonely when i shut myself up.

I have become a stranger myself,
Trying to solve my own problem though its tiring,
But i don't mind after so much thing happen in my life,
From what i see is something that i should cherish and hold onto,
Let it be painful and tiring but i can never give up yet,
Not when i feel myself a stranger to my own.