Her broken heart

It is so fragile,
The life that i led so far,
Had made me so easily broken inside,
While i keep a straight face,
But lately i felt that tears nearly dropped from my precious eye,
I had to turn away avoiding their eyes,
And brush the tears away before it could dropped,
Didn't i promise to myself to not let it happen again,
To not let my precious tears fall down again,
I guess the aftermath of my sad memory,
Has come back to me without any mercy,
For even if i begged to leave me alone,
It keeps on coming on everytime i fake another laugh.

It is so hard,
For me to tell them,
My very own family how i too hurt a lot,
But then there's always silent whisperer keeps on floating around,
'I'm only 23 years old and what pain did i really felt compare to my parent,'
Thus i turn myself around and letting me to be hurt again,
A listener to their pain that i am,
A joker to their eyes,
But all i really do take is their bashing when they loses control,
How can i be able to protect it any longer,
When i too need a shelter or more to say,
Someone whom i can really turn and cry upon too.

The nights that always accompany me,
There's no stars that i see,
No moon to be my idol,
Just dark cloudy nights become my very own blanket,
In this very room that i have,
I wrote my heart out for them to read one day,
But then i'll regret it the moment they say i'm wrong,
So tell me Dear Daisy,
What will my fate bring me?
This pain that i bring each and everyday of my life,
Will i ever found a warrior that can warm me with his life,
And make me laugh again without those tear that filled up my eye,
How i long to be able to say what is in my heart....