My Lonely Nights

If there is a path that i have to choose,
How i wanted to so eagerly chose the path for my happiness,
Life has its own way and so does fate,
No matter which path i took,
I would always come to the same junction,
The same decision that i should make,
And without a doubt i still lead the pain, the tears, the laughter all along.

If people always wanted the time to stop or reverse,
I would want the same as well,
For until now i can never forgive myself,
Their eyes that i see today is full of hope and dreams,
They look at me as if i'm innocence,
Forgetting that i am also human,
The once white cloth that i had on,
Has long been tainted by the black colour that i love,
How can i apologize to them when it is all a secret that i'm scared off,
A past that haunted me over and over again,
This is my punishment,
Where i'm unable to love anyone without hurting them.