Love from Sinned

That loneliness and regret,
It was the cause my unforgivable sin,
The one and only that i kept as my secret,
The darkest part of the world i wish it would vanish,
Battling every now and then about the same thing,
Just over and over again,
My wish to turn back the time,
Will never be granted,
This is no fairy tale with magical wand,
Nor even a snapped through my finger will never erase it,
Thus by far i have come to accept,
Accept the sinned me,
But with this acceptance,
I can never forgive myself nor open my heart any longer,
The one dream and every little girl's dream,
Pretending to be the one who lost her shoe,
The one who ate an apple and fall to sleep,
The one with with magical long hair,
All of them have their prince by their side,
Their protector and shield to the evil,
The hands that do hold so close to their heart,
It was like a magical healer,
As the pain suddenly all gone,
With 'I do and accept you with all my heart',
That one moment in my life that i can never reach,
And just that loneliness i shut my heart out,
Refusing to remember again the sweetness of love,
As for now,
Not only LOVE that i need the most,
Something more to come with you in accepting the sinned me.