A lot of things

There are things that people forgot to teach me
They forgot to teach me how to laugh again once i fall,
Once i start a new life in a new leaf,
They forgot to mention that i will never be the same.

Someone did remind me about the past,
The past that erase my memories after,
To the point i can hardly remember anyone,
The name that taught me how to love,
Even the name that taught me how to cry.

My future is not for a fortune teller to tell,
It was my Greatest Creator who have write it on my fate,
Though i chose every other path that i can,
I still and will be tested no matter how weak i am.

Her broken heart

It is so fragile,
The life that i led so far,
Had made me so easily broken inside,
While i keep a straight face,
But lately i felt that tears nearly dropped from my precious eye,
I had to turn away avoiding their eyes,
And brush the tears away before it could dropped,
Didn't i promise to myself to not let it happen again,
To not let my precious tears fall down again,
I guess the aftermath of my sad memory,
Has come back to me without any mercy,
For even if i begged to leave me alone,
It keeps on coming on everytime i fake another laugh.

It is so hard,
For me to tell them,
My very own family how i too hurt a lot,
But then there's always silent whisperer keeps on floating around,
'I'm only 23 years old and what pain did i really felt compare to my parent,'
Thus i turn myself around and letting me to be hurt again,
A listener to their pain that i am,
A joker to their eyes,
But all i really do take is their bashing when they loses control,
How can i be able to protect it any longer,
When i too need a shelter or more to say,
Someone whom i can really turn and cry upon too.

The nights that always accompany me,
There's no stars that i see,
No moon to be my idol,
Just dark cloudy nights become my very own blanket,
In this very room that i have,
I wrote my heart out for them to read one day,
But then i'll regret it the moment they say i'm wrong,
So tell me Dear Daisy,
What will my fate bring me?
This pain that i bring each and everyday of my life,
Will i ever found a warrior that can warm me with his life,
And make me laugh again without those tear that filled up my eye,
How i long to be able to say what is in my heart....

My Lonely Nights

If there is a path that i have to choose,
How i wanted to so eagerly chose the path for my happiness,
Life has its own way and so does fate,
No matter which path i took,
I would always come to the same junction,
The same decision that i should make,
And without a doubt i still lead the pain, the tears, the laughter all along.

If people always wanted the time to stop or reverse,
I would want the same as well,
For until now i can never forgive myself,
Their eyes that i see today is full of hope and dreams,
They look at me as if i'm innocence,
Forgetting that i am also human,
The once white cloth that i had on,
Has long been tainted by the black colour that i love,
How can i apologize to them when it is all a secret that i'm scared off,
A past that haunted me over and over again,
This is my punishment,
Where i'm unable to love anyone without hurting them.

Friendship never end (it did)

Was it too big for me to hold onto,
Or i'm just not worth it to be holding it,
For something that i called my treasure,
The precious thing and fragile bond that ever happen,
When a friendship turns their back at you,
From there and there,
You just fall down feeling the agony.



It wasn't the warmth that wrapped me up,
But the bleeding each time my heart breaks over and over again,
No matter how hard i try to mend the ties among us,
Seems like the other side of it keeps on getting cut,
How can i reach you and make you see,
When it seems like he was the only one that you care,
Somehow in my head i know i'm losing,
But my heart still tries so hard to reach you,
As time pass by,
I decided to let you go.

When it Pains

What should i do?
When the embrace that i yearn so much becomes poison,
Through my skin it felt like fire,
Burning so much that it hurt and leaves a very dark mark,
Unattractive as it is,
Somehow it becomes like acid that melts everything that i touch,
What should i do when it occurs?
When the heat of one's embrace becomes poison towards me.

What should i do?
When the words of persuade becomes bitter in my throat,
Like the medicine that i took during my pale moments,
Though somehow it can be wash away with water,
But this words does not seem to be washed away by just mere water,
How could i possibly get rid of the bitterness,
When it have come to the truth that i must accept,
But what should i do?
When the bitterness of the words does not goes away and becomes my pain.


What should i do?
When the song that i like becomes a broken radio,
The lyrics that are always clear to my ear becomes silence,
The melody itself turns to an unfinished tune,
Thus it becomes the tears to my eyes when i could have laugh,
Now i even have to beg my dearest MP3 to play it well,
But it seems my feelings is not counted,
For i keep on hearing just a mute song with unfinished melody,
What should i do?
When the song that i use to sing becomes my own tears to my heart.

Place for my heart

There's a place that i need to go,
A place that i would like to call home,
With the dark sky and stars as my roof,
The hard rock as my pillow,
Along with the wet earth as my mattress.

There's a place that i want to stay,
A place where i would run away,
With clean river flowing thoroughly,
The wild flowers sways back and forth,
The oldest tree that protect me from heat,
Along with the sound of bugs as my MP3.

There's a place that i've been missing,
Where i would find my Daisy,
The love of my life that i trusted,
My everything that i ever dream of,
The one who will protect and embrace me from my fear,
Along with the one who will see me as one of his.

Silent Pain

Somehow i wonder if they ever notice it,
Notice how mother is hurting,
Disappointed and tearing heart that i see on her face,
I wonder is they realize it,
How they treat while thinking it was for the sake of her,
But nonetheless they have forgotten about it long time ago,
I had to wonder why it is happening,
Was it because the love or the rebellious mind that made them forgot,
They forgot that mother did exist next to them.

I wonder did they see,
They sadness in the parent's eyes but still putting hope,
As the sons and daughters assume they are happy,
But when the time pass by,
I wonder if they ever notice,
Those wrinkles at their eyes are actually tears that they shed,
Pain that they kept,
A sigh of disappointment with a glint of hope keeps on wavering,
As they live in their very own life while supporting each other,
Talking how their children have forgotten them,
When money overruled the children mind.

I still wonder for today,
Did any of the child take their parent's hand,
Take and hold them to assure their hopes,
Even among 5 of the daughters, sons and there's only one that can rely upon to,
I wonder if someone is out there to hear their pain and relieves them,
Cause parent are not the people who you can hurt,
Not who you can forget,
And most important of all,
Not someone who you can replace,
I wonder if they did ever think,
How they are hurting inside but trying to be happy,
Just for the sake of their children,
They still have to sacrifice their hopes even when the children are old.