I'll Always Think of You

When i'm so far away from you,
Words that i fear becomes my greatest challenge,
The once you thought warm of me becomes so very cold,
Your vision of me slowly fading,
For all you could see and remember becomes your own doubt,
Wondering if i ever was the real one.

This distant that kept us for so long,
I could not bear to write you a long letter,
Nor even send you a very simple text message,
And i'm here hearing how you suffer,
Listening what is happening to you,
Cowardly i can never write you the word that i usually say casually.

Not that i forgot,
For all the treasure that i have in this world,
I can give it up for you,
Just so that i can be so close and closing the distant between us,
Where i can catch you when you fall,
Taking your hand into my own,
Warm it with the very least my heart could do,
While i tell you everything that you needed the most.

When i'm far,
I'm not so cold as the winter that you felt,
My eyes are not the eyes that can freeze you,
Nor even my memory is old enough to make me forget,
Though time becomes our greatest enemy,
When i'm so far away from you,
Please remember,
I always think of you.

The Bus Stop

It was always empty,
At the bus stop,
Even the bus never bother to stop,
It was always empty,
Surrounded with stubborn bushes,
Making it their own place,
Even worse,
Sending shivers to the people,
Assuming it was once a haunted place.

But here i am,
At the always empty bus stop,
Sitting and waiting,
Not for the bus to come,
Something that only i know what to wait,
Ever since then and on,
It was me who make it like home,
Pulling all the weeds and grass,
And just waiting patiently,
While one by one people dare to stop by.

There's a stall beside it,
Out of nowhere they decided to sell drinks and fruit there,
As always they ask me who i wait for,
I can only smile and drink the coffee that i bought,
One by on the car, truck and even motorcycle stop,
Buying drink and fruit,
When it rains the riding one take shelter,
Some sweet couple were shivering cold,
Some old one stares out the sky,
Some were just wearing the rain coat before move on,
It was once an empty bus stop,
Now it was always full of people,
That's when i stop visiting there and just keep observing from far.

The Forgotten Feeling

Days, years have pass by,
Since i last mend my broken heart,
Moving forward without any hesitation,
The pile of paper that was always on my desk,
The ringing phone needed attention,
The people that i need to meet,
I have come so far but yet missing something,
Something that i vow not to have,
But even so just like a virus it creep up upon me,
The warmth of one's hand that told me rest.

Was it the fever that weaken my wall that i created,
When all of the sudden the ice that surround my heart melted,
Leaving me feeling so naked to one's eye,
There have been various scar that were hidden,
When a voice softly spoken to my ear,
Telling me to cry for as much as i want,
Yell for feeling the endless pain,
Most of all,
Ask what is it that i truly want in my life,
Letting me to dream and planting hope,
When finally i open my eyes,
Seeing him standing next to me,
While he send back the feeling that i once use to have.

The One

Lately your confession troubles my heart,
I am hoping to give a denial,
But i cannot bear to watch you hurt,
Nor can i stand to lie to you,
Thus i run somewhere for me to rest,
As i could no longer accept the love that you gave.

Lately i am unable to open my heart,
Not even a single emotion i did let out,
My eye stare coldly and freezes the warm that you gave,
Your words seems unreachable to me,
No matter you sung your praises clearly as the blue sky,
I can no longer hear them nor respond to any.

Lately i dream of my romance,
Being held captive by your warm embrace,
Wake up to see you beside me holding me tightly,
Whispering the lovely word that flatters me,
Just like a rake you are trying to win my heart,
Patiently creeping onto my heart,
Not bother of knocking but steal this heart of mine.

Lately i see myself in your eyes,
For i could no longer believe it was true,
There you are with your way heading for me,
Reaching out your hand as you say the word,
The word that i try to erase from my life,
But when you enter,
With your arrogance and selfish way,
You told me that i belong to you and refuse any denial,
As always i could mask my own reaction,
When you bent down and whisper to my ear,
Saying "Love, i can see through you."

Dining table

What actually happen to us?
It felt so far apart though we live in the same house,
We could barely have dinner together,
Silence, awkwardness floats into air,
Turning the situation to tense atmosphere,
Where did it all go wrong,
To be eating alone and heading to the room,
While you were down there i was up here,
What could actually be happening between us?
Being so close but yet so far to reach,
Tell me something,
Could we sit around on the dining table like we used to?
I miss the days where crab become our favourite food,
Days of our life,
Where did we spent it to,
When we forgot what precious time went as we grow older.

It Has Been the Same

" I'll make you, your favourite food"
I've heard of it before,
It sounds so familiar and the last time i heard it,
Made my heart flutters,
But in just one second it tears up my whole heart,
Crashing it over and over again,
I know i should never lose hope,
But how can i keep doing so when it all comes in vain.

I was mad for the first time it happen,
Every year i dealt with the same thing,
The same line that i heard but only the venue was different,
The event was differ as well,
Yes, it put on a smile on me every year,
But as the time gets near,
There's always excuse running in my ear,
Stares that i got from others,
And all thats left for me,
Is nothing but a shattered heart again and again.

Is it wrong of me to say i'm not putting it into hope anymore?
The me who never learn her lesson for a long time has finally learnt it,
But then all i hear is your heart cracking,
What exactly do i have to do?
I who have waited years of the simple thing,
Have to work so hard to make you see me,
But as always,
You skip the one in front of you and move on to others,
How can i keep on going if i keep on hoping?
For a favourite food that i longed for,
I have waited so many years and keep on meding this heart of mine,
So tell me,
Is it wrong for me to lose hope for only this time of the year?

Let me Smile

When you see my eyes filled up with tears,
Take me away from the place that made me that way,
Don't talk to me or console me at that time,
Cause i promise myself to not shed a tear anymore,
Bring me to a place where there's no roof to cover from sunshine,
But ravines to cool me down,
Let it be rocks the place that i lay,
As i watch the sky and close my eyes to smell the trees,
Let me stay there,
As night finally shown itself,
Slowly you may come to me and talk while taking out my favourite food,
From there i'll talk about my pain and anger,
You will see me cry while i tell you more stories,
But oddly enough i start to laugh when you joke around,
As i tell you more about the funny moments,
There on you will see me smile again.