My Friend's Sacrification

And she told me all about the sacrifice that are needed,
I have longed occur and still doing it,
A friend of mine finally opens up,
About her life that she needed and the life that she wants,
I could have told her all of that,
But life is a mystery and we are the Sherlock Holmes,
I would have told her why is it i'm this way,
But would she take it by heart or just a nod in the head,
As she told me the stories so far,
I was recalling mine in silent,
Finally i said to myself,
She too found the reason to sacrifice.

This is where i STAND!!!

Here me speak,
Although i am just a nobody,
All this chaos has tired me lately,
Some were asking too much,
While on the other side were just being grateful,
Thus a border with a big wall has been created,
All the medias and the politics,
Has really made the world aged,
As they prefer making tantrums just like a kid,
A stubborn old goat if i may have name it,
One with professional skills but stupid enough to see,
One with higher education but dumb enough to notice,
When all that power, freedom and whatever nonsense they are asking,
Shall not bring them to the ground where they will be buried,
Aye,
People will die,
All the living things will have their lives taken away,
What you fight and making a ruckus now shall not help you at all,
As your stupidity cause such a bloodshed and war,
The envy and the cheers from the devil,
And yes,
We are being laughed at,
The country that were once being respected,
Could fall so low to the point it disgust me,
But i'll pray over here and will be praying,
Stopping at any mosque that i can see,
I will pray there and will always be,
To The Almighty i put my head down in shame,
Of the people nowadays too busy with the world,
Of them becoming like one of 'that',
I pray Ye Allah The Almighty,
To open their eyes and appreciate what they have,
For i still haven't let my children see,
What beauty that i see before it comes tainted,
What The Almighty have given to us and i once held upon it,
I worry for the future due their idiotic mind,
Insanely hunger for the power,
I thought we have learnt a lot from the past,
And it seems i don't mind having my life taken right now,
When the eye craves for money and power,
Such unreasonable dissatisfaction they could not overcome,
Flooded like a virus it has spread,
Now,
I'm just scared living here,
Be it my fear or the fury of The Almighty,
They have forgotten the important one as they are blind,
I could tell them about the stupidity,
But will it ever end in the hands of a girl like me,
I'll spread the word and you do the spreading,
I'll challenge them so but without fighting,
I'll give them what i a piece of my mind as i want them to hear,
For i will overcome thier blindness and lunatic mind.

Make me another day

Make me another day like this,
Where i remember how to fall in love without fear,
How i let my love spread the word of my happiness,
And how everything that i see is beautiful without being tainted,
Make me another day like this,
Where i can save my heart from drowning,
Plain drown and buried locked inside,
I pray for the hand,
I pray for my hand that ought to reach myself,
So i can know one thing that is for sure,
Remember it forever and ever,
About what i used to make others hear,
I shall live and survive this world.

Make me another day like this,
Where i know how to move on but not burying it within,
How to let everything just pass by just for the sake of me,
And how i can finally say that i am hurt without keeping my cool,
Make me another day like this,
Where i will not ask and begged to be accepted again,
Revealing myself and just me all the way,
Being selfish ever for that moment in my life,
So i can tell myself in the future,
No regret and no worries,
At least i fall because of my stupidity and not my duty,
I ask for a hand and i would ask again and again,
For all the lost that i have missed now.

Two World

All this lengthy talk that i can't stand,
Not a minute longer even a seconds more,
I have tried that far to open my heart,
And yet still i'm stuck between the lines,
The goods and evil one might see,
But just a regretting past and the forbidden future,
Somehow indeed it is tiring for me,
The moment i lost everything,
I have been trying so hard to fight,
Just for the tiny pieces of me would be fine,
For at least i know i am alive.

Now and then i could not stand about their talk,
About the love and the beauty behind it,
Nor the surrounding around me i detest it so,
Probably the envy that i do not notice,
Or much probably another part of me longing for,
I could never tell you much and help you more,
But the loneliness that i felt,
Making my life so silent,
Seems so demure,
Just the opposite of my wildness that my treasure see,
Even now and then i played my character too well for the world.

The next i'm this person and the later i'm that person,
Not a script that i followed,
Nor anyone for me to fool,
The audience will always be there,
Not knowing what has fooled them so much in the later movie,
I could have spoken the truth,
I could have let them see the real me,
I know i'm just being selfish,
But remember the bits and pieces of me that i try to save,
Those are the only thing i have left,
When love exit its way from my heart,
Thus comes the lonesome that i have to handle,
I pray for that one day,
That day will come for me and i believe as much as that.

Happiness for you too

All the love that i thought was gone,
Somehow buried by the past and the years that were there,
Feeling ever so lifeless,
Not much to say trying to tolerate,
The pain and so does the heartbreak,
Dreams of being together and married,
It was a little bit more there,
Just a little bit of a way to achieve,
You suddenly went,
Leaving me behind.

Was i foolish enough to believe in us,
How far we must have been apart,
The obstacles we face,
It might have been not make us strong enough,
To know we would parted our ways like this,
I took it as much as a broken people do,
Praying for your happiness as you join hands with another,
I will walk forward without a flower in my hand,
Nor the heavy step that you thought,
This is the farewell that i chose to give.

I told myself over and over again,
To forget you and never to see you,
But as i happen trying to live,
That was part of my life and i soon to accept my past,
Back then we were together happy ever after,
As now i am happy too even without you,
This is never a race nor competition,
Just so you know,
I hold hands with someone dear to me,
Precious enough to never leave me behind,
And in time what i have wish for you back then,
Is from a sincere heart of mine,
Cause when i bloom,
The spirit of Daisy will outshine my happiness.

Message 18/04/12

They see my confession as a song,
A melody that they never heard,
I have always said i am not a mystery,
Nor did i hide any secrets,
Even if i do have a story i could not tell,
It did not exist in my heart to talk,
That night i send you a heartbreak piece,
It was the mind of a broken soul,
Not just a song for it is just written out,
Truly it is from my heart,
What had me to become so hurt,
I am trying to share in my own way,
But if that is not possible for you to understand,
Maybe i meant to shut myself away.

This War

What life can i take,
What was it can i cherish,
When what i have felt,
More to pain and envy,
And so does i may conclude,
My relationship that i try so hard,
Ever dreaming of wearing the ring of love,
Kids of my own,
Redeem the suffering that i had now for happiness,
I want only that and only that before i change,
As i learn all the more and a whole lot more,
About the failure that i do not boast.

I am in the middle of confusion,
Not the road that i am taking,
Nor the challenge that i have to face,
More likely the conflict i had within,
My principles and my judgement,
What i believe so far and still carry on,
I can only sigh when i do get tired,
All the swords that once are sharp,
Now being nearly to rust with a clean cut,
What is it that i achieved,
I do believe i am happy once upon a time,
But then why is it,
My past hold me like a prisoner on a death row.

I vow to make it interesting,
Meeting lots and a lot more through this journey,
With the sacrifice i made that i have believe,
I can still be happy despite i am empty,
Dear oh dear me,
I often scolded,
My dear oh dear me whom easily persuaded,
They have known my weaknesses,
I have let them use it for a while,
Now i am hunger for them to notice,
That strength of mine they happen to pass,
For i have believe i stood high enough,
But it was still on the very ground my foot stands,
Cause i know the very least at the moment,
Where my war would lead me to.