Two World

All this lengthy talk that i can't stand,
Not a minute longer even a seconds more,
I have tried that far to open my heart,
And yet still i'm stuck between the lines,
The goods and evil one might see,
But just a regretting past and the forbidden future,
Somehow indeed it is tiring for me,
The moment i lost everything,
I have been trying so hard to fight,
Just for the tiny pieces of me would be fine,
For at least i know i am alive.

Now and then i could not stand about their talk,
About the love and the beauty behind it,
Nor the surrounding around me i detest it so,
Probably the envy that i do not notice,
Or much probably another part of me longing for,
I could never tell you much and help you more,
But the loneliness that i felt,
Making my life so silent,
Seems so demure,
Just the opposite of my wildness that my treasure see,
Even now and then i played my character too well for the world.

The next i'm this person and the later i'm that person,
Not a script that i followed,
Nor anyone for me to fool,
The audience will always be there,
Not knowing what has fooled them so much in the later movie,
I could have spoken the truth,
I could have let them see the real me,
I know i'm just being selfish,
But remember the bits and pieces of me that i try to save,
Those are the only thing i have left,
When love exit its way from my heart,
Thus comes the lonesome that i have to handle,
I pray for that one day,
That day will come for me and i believe as much as that.