This War

What life can i take,
What was it can i cherish,
When what i have felt,
More to pain and envy,
And so does i may conclude,
My relationship that i try so hard,
Ever dreaming of wearing the ring of love,
Kids of my own,
Redeem the suffering that i had now for happiness,
I want only that and only that before i change,
As i learn all the more and a whole lot more,
About the failure that i do not boast.

I am in the middle of confusion,
Not the road that i am taking,
Nor the challenge that i have to face,
More likely the conflict i had within,
My principles and my judgement,
What i believe so far and still carry on,
I can only sigh when i do get tired,
All the swords that once are sharp,
Now being nearly to rust with a clean cut,
What is it that i achieved,
I do believe i am happy once upon a time,
But then why is it,
My past hold me like a prisoner on a death row.

I vow to make it interesting,
Meeting lots and a lot more through this journey,
With the sacrifice i made that i have believe,
I can still be happy despite i am empty,
Dear oh dear me,
I often scolded,
My dear oh dear me whom easily persuaded,
They have known my weaknesses,
I have let them use it for a while,
Now i am hunger for them to notice,
That strength of mine they happen to pass,
For i have believe i stood high enough,
But it was still on the very ground my foot stands,
Cause i know the very least at the moment,
Where my war would lead me to.