Devil in me

Feelings like this,
Never should exist in the heart of my own,
Talking about what i deserve and not,
So much sacrifice that i'm making,
For the things that are not mine,
Then why is it i have been given this when it troubles me,
I keep denying it,
And forever sharing my luck with others,
As my greeds tried so hard to take control,
I fight with every will i have,
Just to know my own place.

I could always tell the truth,
Sets myself free than any other birds in the sky,
But what good does it bring to others,
The one mistake that i did,
Let it be me to suffer,
For the decision and my betrayal towards them,
Silently i'm making it into a deadly nuclear weapon,
That is why i can never tell,
What might be the most i regret and the one sets me free,
It would be the death of those who hear it.

I keep my head down,
The next time i won't talk that much,
Nor boast about my own success,
Cause the fear over my ownself,
Have become the reason i hide myself,
Too afraid to show what might come for me,
Even a pinch of my shadow might become a virus,
Hear me well but not from my mouth,
See me well but not from my outside,
Let this clicking message that i'm doing,
Be my words of truth and be my everything for you to know.