Life from the lonely heart

Waiting is very painful,
A process that endures so many of them,
Seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, years,
It didn't seem to have an ends,
I could give up right now,
But what happen to my believe?,
The wishes i make every night,
The prayers that i say in my every prayer,
It is not in my nature to let things go,
What more to say,
It is the reason why i still want to live,
Due to the simple one,
I tend to appreciate it more and more.

That day,
Seems like yesterday for me,
The unchanging chore of what i do,
More and more question pops out,
Just when i was about to finish answering it all,
The next day,
I seem to keep on doing just that,
An exchange of conversation,
Within me and the heart i own,
Sighing over when it got complicated,
Another thought crosses my mind,
It would be nice,
If there really is someone for me to talk to.

Yet,
They always say,
What we want we can never have,
I told a friend all about it,
When she complain about the phrase that we always hear too,
'Just go with the flow, it will make life easier',
Thats what they say,
And how we both see it,
We were wondering if we will break that phrase,
When it is never easy when it comes to life itself,
As i told her when the question of being the black sheep in the lots,
"It's a trial and error do,
The will determine the impossible,
As we keep changing answer and direction from time to time,
It is unstable,
Just like treasure hunt it is,"
Yesterday, today and tomorrow,
It is a mystery without the science included.