Price of Karma

I sometimes wonder,
How long and just how much,
Endurance and tolerance that i have to go,
I wish i had all the answer and sometimes,
I wish i only know that much,
Knowing everything makes life harder,
Their feeling that i have to think about,
The limit that only i can know,
Something should be ignore,
Before i forgot about myself.

The thing that i'm scared of,
How much pain that keeps on adding,
To the memories that will fade in time,
The scar that will somehow open up,
I'm still scared to what it will made me,
Fearing i would be the monster,
Be someone that i could hardly recognize,
Reminders of everyday mending the pieces,
Is a fragile matter,
When i have to be the angel of my wild side.

My tears are my pride,
Hidden and unknown,
Secrets that are kept within this four walls,
Protecting me from the harm and evil,
I would cower myself up during the night,
The only moment that i would know,
Without any disruption,
I would have the time of my own,
To cry my heart out,
And to write hundreds of my own story.

It's the price i'm taking,
Of the sins that i have done,
Of the people that i have hurt by far,
Ignore and trouble,
Mock and sarcasm,
I have done it all when i'm too high up there,
Now i felt it all as the karma works around,
I can only ask forgiveness,
And pray for each other's happiness,
I pray for you too.