Temper of Mine

If i could held onto my anger just for a little while,
Then i wouldn't need to do anymore damage,
Even just for a moment in my life,
I regret when i couldn't hold myself back,
As i lost mostly what i treasure and things i cherished,
I hope by it then,
Even for the tiniest chance that i have,
I hope to revive what i lost.

Some other things that i don't want to say,
I wish i could held onto my devilish tongue,
Without piercing anyone's heart,
I could not resist this hurtful daggers that they gave,
I am without a doubt could not keep myself away,
As they are my dearest one to my heart,
But they are also the one that would hurt me most,
Remind me of my temper that could break everyone apart,
Remind me of who i am in the past and even now.

It is more the impossible to not say it,
When all i ever wanted that i care for all,
And this face didn't show what you wanted to see,
Just sometimes i could not express without being sick,
I am this person with the temper,
To always hide every emotion but are easily hurt,
Deep down i want to be strong no matter the endless pain,
Just for the sake of them i tell myself,
Even just for  a little while i want to be patient,
I let myself hurt over and over again,
I shut my mouth to the thoughtless moment,
I wish all the more and more again.