Anonymous Sinner

An unspoken apologize,
Unknowingly what was the fault,
Silently i gave myself to surrender,
Against my own nature,
I sacrifice the way i live so far,
Such sins that was untold,
A secret that i have kept so long,
Who would have thought i have come this far,
Sometimes i thought of confessing,
But then will they be able to forgive me,
This is my only way to ask for forgiveness,
Unknowingly,
They thought i have change.

Yesterday's sin that i want to forget,
Bury so deep in my own Pandora's box,
Untouchable and cannot be open,
Ever since the regret that i have felt,
The tears that i will give upon them,
Silently,
Just ever so secretly,
I kept asking for forgiveness,
They didn't know,
The reason i try so hard to take care of them,
Be good to them,
Obeyed them like a faithful daughter,
That was just my other half of the story,
I wonder what will happen when the learn,
About the past that i'm trying to keep.

All the cleaning,
The hardworking,
I devoted myself to them,
Making them happy are my priority,
Letting them unhurt,
Be their shoulders of everything that needed,
I am there for them,
For how long i have live my life like this,
I seem to forget when was the last time,
I thought of being selfish,
It wasn't enough,
The fear that they won't forgive me,
It haunts me to the very day,
Nights of terror in my own sleep,
My own bed,
My own diary,
The pain that i felt throughout this ordeal,
Is nothing to what my sins will do to them,
Forgiveness that i keep on asking,
But unknowingly,
And anonymously.