D's Chronicles

Knowing that it will be hard,
Understanding the reason behind it,
The hardness that i have to go through,
I could only pray,
For a stronger heart,
A full-metal heart,
As i toughen myself up,
Keeping it low as possible,
When the time i have decided,
To erase the things that were always with me,
Those burdens and feelings that i want to ignore,
Cause i have decided now and then,
That i will move on and forget about you.

Although the words of us breaking apart,
It seem as though we never do break,
For we keep on seeing,
Finding each other,
And you are always there whenever i needed someone,
But the confusion that were brought upon,
Questions on the whereabouts of you in my heart,
Seems like a burden that i could not take,
As i dig onto your feelings,
Wanting some assurance on your side,
When the answers that i have from you,
Is always a heartbreaking one,
Just then and then,
I told myself,
To disappear bits by bits,
Without any words nor anything,
I hold onto your answer and left you in silence.

It's hard to keep walking,
Running is not an option,
I sure do know that i will face is hard,
Cry as i might,
Misery and pain i would be feeling,
But i sure know it now,
The mending process of how long it took,
Never judge the year that i have gone,
Cause each and every pain,
Comes a different years to heal,
I may come back with a still wounded and bleeding heart,
But i have heal the others,
And maybe i come back,
With scars that could be bleed or reminder,
Who knows what will happen then,
I wish for happiness in my life as always,
And that happiness is such further away,
But still,
I do believe in it.

Something that was always there,
Now it's gone,
Dear this heart of mine,
Move on and be strong,
For i need another part of myself,
For other people who cares about me,
Fight their battle along with them,
Lend them this strength of mine when they needed it,
I force myself hard to be there for them,
Cause this feeling of wanting to protect my happiness is always there,
Doesn't matter if my battle were forgotten,
But i have come this far,
The life that i want to appreciate,
I am thankful in every way,
Cause the history of my life,
Is yet to be begins again,
As i open my eye to face another and another.

The changes in the world,
That my eye witness,
Yearning about every little memories that once there,
Now gone over the time as it disappear,
I still want to hold onto the precious memories,
Though some have died in my memories that i treasure,
I will always want to remember the very same thing,
Missing them more and more,
Feelings to meet them in my memories are burning,
Older i have become,
I still want to lock it tightly as my treasure,
I am the legendary pirate myself,
Keeping and robbing whatever i had effected on theirs,
For that one day we meet,
May we laugh about the same thing,
And cry for the lost one that i was late to return to.

Longing to love and be loved,
To be remembered and cared,
Protected and trusting,
A happy tale that i always listen to,
Fear as i may,
Cause life,
Not everything is perfect,
They always says that,
I thought about the people itself,
But it was about everything,
How it is fine for the imperfection and unbalance,
The matter of taking and understanding it is a question,
O life that i lead,
I have found those in my path,
Answers that are question as i walked or run,
I seem to be satisfied in all,
But now have come another question,
The one that accepted and be my pair,
Is who?, is the question that seems to let me down...