Love letter to my family (Sisters) P.1

Dear Sisters,
I have nothing special but being the troublemaker,
I don't regret it cause it is the only way i could attract your attention,
It is my first letter to you and i want to write it so badly,
But the problem is i might not be able to face you anymore,
So forgive me if you found this letter a bit later,
For this sister of yours,
Is too coward to face her life.

Dear Sisters,
I had fun being your sister,
Though i am not smart like all of you,
But i try not to let you all worry me,
I'm proud to be your sister but there are things i needed from you,
I needed your support upon my future,
I needed your strength to open my heart again,
Your word to soothe me down,
I needed more than just love dear sisters,
And one day you would hear me out.

Dear Sisters,
I might be nothing but trouble,
And a burden all in all,
But i hope you could see me as a special person,
So that i feel that i'm special too,
I try and try and try my hardest getting your attention,
But it ended nothing up unseen,
I was hurt and feeling hopeless,
I needed something and i hope you can see it one day.

When I Think...

When i think i am safe,
The world tells a different story,
Guns and bombs are everywhere to be seen,
Not to mention the thieves and murderer are waiting for its prey,
People are suffering for their lost,
And it always painful to see more blood that they keep on drinking,
Even awful howling sounds does not seem to deterred their obsession,
Until now we keep on counting the bodies and crime.

When i think i have live a good life,
The world tells a different side of the story,
The seas are turning black,
The sky is much clearer than few decades ago,
Sun has never been so cruel,
Not to forget the ice has gone and so has the water,
Bits by bits it is suffering because of us,
STOP!!! said the tree,
But we still are chopping,
Now can you see what have you done to earth?
It is dying and we are the only hope,
But are we still wasting again and wait until the JUDGEMENT DAY?

When i think i have a quite life,
The world still shows a different side,
It fills with chaos around me,
People are lining up arm with stone and bottle,
Throwing it to show their protest,
In the end some get hurt and killed,
Others busy taking drugs and filling alcohol through their throats,
But in the end it cause a blood bath between innocent people,
Never forget our recent incident,
Street racing between two wheels ride,
Cause more than just damage to the country,
Its in the news for goodness sake,
But the voices seems to be unheard,
While i think i'm living in the peaceful cauntry,
I'm starting to get goosebumps every time i close my eyes.

Letter to My Family (Mom)

Dear Mom,
I love you from the very start,
From the day that i was born,
It was 6th of August was it not?
I cry as i enter your world and weigh more than any of other members,
You used to say i weigh like an child who already 1 year old,
Still you hold me and protect me from all the harm,
I love you for that,
My first step it wasn't easy,
I must have been into mischief,
But i was curious to grow up and wanting to know everything,
As time pass by,
I went to school,
Though i wanted to go to school that much,
I cry so hard on my first day,
Suddenly i become homesick,
And still i go on with my study,
I was a cry baby wasn't i?
But i got it through.
I shouldn't have grow up so quickly,
I shouldn't have...
I was in 1st grade where i remember your promise,
" If you get 1st place in class, mommy will give you a present."
You said with a smile,
And i study my hardest and look forward for your present,
I did got 1st place mom but it turns out you were mad at me,
I still don't understand why up until now,
But i still hold onto your promise,
I'm 22 now and i can't cry anymore to beg your attention,
I can't scream anymore to say i'm sad and angry,
I can't do that any longer,
It was hard mom and i don't want to grow up,
But i had to while i hold onto your promises,
One promise that you made with me has become promises that i'm keeping,
Mom,
If only you can see it.

Only A Story Part II

It's raining again. Most would hated the rain except for this particular girl. She love the rain and never bother missing the sun. It has been a part of her life and she would dance around the house feeling happy altogether. It's her precious moment and she never wants it to end. But today, she went out of the house and play with the rain. She like to hear the squishing and splashing sounds that she makes every time she dances up and down. No one can take that away that moment from her. No one. Yes, no one, for now. Its her music and her life. It's part of her but as she dances around, a spark of lightning brightens the sky. She went still for a moment and rushes her way to the house. As much as she likes the rain, she never like thunder and lightning. She never like it cause its the same goes with her life. Her life that she's trying to safe. In her little world and her dreams. She will shelter it with all she might and that is not just a saying but it is a vow that she makes with herself. She is just a little girl and she manage to shelter her comfort zone. Just like the cupboard shields her eyes and her ears from the thunder and lightning, she put herself in the front line to shields her tiny space. That's what she would do but not when she is helpless. She is still an innocence child not knowing pain and mentally hurt....

P/S Well, i try to finish this story but i end up feeling sad to finish it. I'll finish it one day. It's in process.

Only A Story

This is a story that I'm about to tell but let me remind you, it is only a story. Could be true but how true it is? Heehaw...


It's raining again. Most would hated the rain except for this particular girl. She love the rain and never bother missing the sun. It has been a part of her life and she would dance around the house feeling happy altogether. It's her precious moment and she never wants it to end. But today, she went out of the house and play with the rain. She like to hear the squishing and splashing sounds that she makes every time she dances up and down. No one can take that away that moment from her. No one. Yes, no one, for now. Its her music and her life. It's part of her but as she dances around, a spark of lightning brightens the sky. She went still for a moment and rushes her way to the house. As much as she likes the rain, she never like thunder and lightning. She never like it cause its the same goes with her life. Her life that she's trying to safe.

Hey Email

Hey @yahoo,
Would you be so kind to send the news?
As fast as you can like the wind,
So that i'll be able to walk again.

Hey @gmail,
Could you possibly tell my friend,
That i need them for a shoulder to cry on,
So i could smile again.

Hey @hotmail,
Would you be able to tell my parents,
About how i needed their support and love,
Cause i'm longing for happiness.

Hey @yahoo,
Could you tell them i'm not going to be there,
I won't be seeing them anymore,
Cause i'm running away now but trying to keep in touch.

Hey @gmail,
Would you mind send the purpose of this message,
So that i can let them hear my news,
But they never care do they?

Hey @hotmail,
I'm already tired sending the email,
Can i just delete my account?
Like i delete my memory.