Flowers For My Friend

I have missed my chance of lending,
Lending this very shoulder that you needed the most,
I have heard it on the news,
About the once peaceful land,
Now have become the great grave of all,
Buried houses and bodies are still missing,
The damage is massive,
I have heard it all,
While i was laughing with my friends.

It was pretty late for me to come and comfort,
A lot of hand were there before i could make a decision,
A friend that you have known and thought would help,
Suddenly were too silence on my side,
But i still come, my dear friend of mine,
And forgive me for my tardiness,
The words seem to always stuck that kept me away,
As i was searching for you in every place that was once there,
Forgive me for making you wait,
As i sat next to the grave with your name entitled to it.

Even Love...

Even if love can hurt,
And it would hurt,
I still hope to find the one and only love,
That fear of heartbreaking moment is still there,
But if that is so,
I want to fall in love again.

Even if love can hurt,
And it would hurt,
I want to keep on believing in it,
About the greatest gift that The Almighty has given to me,
But even so,
I still put the one that gave me this gift the first.

Even if love can hurt,
And it would hurt,
I will always fight for it,
Accepting the flaw in others and letting them in without a doubt,
If that would have happen,
Then it would be a true love of all.

My Last Relationship

What love have left for us,
Are not just pain and suffering,
We both did have our happy moment,
The moment of confessing,
Going out for the first time,
Trying so hard to impressed the other side,
To the moment we were both blinded by those fake act,
As time pass by,
Comfort by what we have seen so far,
The love has grown so much that it blinded us again.

Love never change,
The fact that it got stronger changes our way,
Wanting to show the real side of us,
The good, the bad and the worse,
Thinking and hoping it would be accepted,
Without anymore pretense,
We just want to see each other true self,
What we didn't think of,
We forgot to accept the imperfection,
In the end causes the fight and dissatisfaction,
For so long we endure,
Tired and boredom has come to us,
Just like my favourite song quote,
Love will never change but only people do.

Now that i am alone,
Staring at the once busy ringing phone,
Thinking back what went wrong that kept us apart,
I see it now,
How each other's flaw that we are unable to take,
The true face that each other want to show,
It all comes in vain,
I do wonder if honesty in true self need a right time,
We were young back then,
Underestimating the power of love,
Misunderstood what it was all about,
We are well now,
But we can never go back once more,
The meaning ahead of it,
Kept us from opening doors to each other.

Three Things.

Walk with me for a while,

For once in your life would you listen to what i'm saying,

Without any objection,

Just let me selfishly think that i am right this time,

Selfishly let me be the one making the decision and take the risk,

You can only look and be my supporter,

Only for that time,

Let me fall and be back on my feet again.

Sit with me for a while,

Let me cry as i tell you what i have been keeping,

No questioning nor correcting,

Just let this tears of mine flow ever so freely in front of you,

Showing you the pain that i have endure by far,

The things that creeps upon me at night,

When i couldn't sleep nor talk to anyone,

Just let me cry my heart out,

As you be a person for me to rely upon,

Only for that time,

Let me show you that i am too a person with feelings.

Stay with me forever,

As i pour out the final secret and the truth,

No yelling and disbelief,

But slap me and abandon me if that is possible,

Let me be without a name that is known to your ear,

A stranger to your eye,

So it will be easy for me to walk out of that only door,

No goodbyes that i will leave,

Probably just a letter on the table that i happen to like,

Traces of me will be completely erase,

Only for that time,

Don't forgive a person like me and live healthy. 

Bits of D's life

I am not known for the things that i accomplished,
People don't talk about my achievement,
Nor did i bother to add another trophy in my wall of fame,
Being forgotten and alone is the things that i grew up,
Run as i might getting away from the thoughts that occur,
But what do voices do when i needed it the most,
Tongue-tied by the fear of hurting others,
I could not help but only to put this faces that you see everyday,
Whatever you want from me,
A puppet that you carried around,
Will always lend this shoulder for you,
Just pretending that everything is alright,
When i do know the real of the reality that i see,
Consoling them by sending the words that are meant for me,
I only happen to be a shadow behind my own self,
A time that i disappear was only when darkness fall,
Without the lights nor guideness,
I could only believe on the path that i took,
They don't remember my footprints,
Of how i fall so far behind while struggling ever so hard,
This wall of fame that i look upon,
Is only the glory that i once had and now it's forgotten.

A short thought.

I cannot but feel so far among the crowds,
So little among the little,
So small among the smallest,
It's the eyes that says it all,
None of the words would be heard,
But somehow it reaches through,
Where i get the point of bits in every stare,
I would smile along to become strong again.

A request for love song

I was depending on this hand of mine,
To tell others what i have been feeling inside,
The very reason why i cannot fulfill other's request,
A love song for them and specially for them,
I haven't been able to write it for so long,
Cause each time i do let it flow,
It becomes more pain and less happiness,
To the point i fear they might become like me,
Since it seems like my words can soothe them,
But i had to back off when it comes to the love song that they wanted.

My hand writes what it is in my heart,
The things that i might not be able to tell for so long,
My life, journey and my past,
I have been telling them all and not lies that were spoken,
But just as complicated i am showing emotion,
They still thought of me as the art itself,
Which is why the requests that i turned down for so long,
I am never to write it,
For the moment that is,
As time will come when i fall in love,
And until then,
Wait for the love songs that i believe in will make you see.

The hand that writes,
Is from the bottom of my heart,
It was my final conversation that will make you hear,
For ain't no more lie that i'll be telling you,
Just something honest that you wanted to hear,
If it pains you or gave you a whole lot more,
Then come to think about the life that i lead,
For the smiles and faces that i cherished,
To protect them by sealing my mouth shut,
The same reason why i can never sing the love song for you,
I have written it, 1 by far,
But i have not sung upon the meaning behind it.

Time that i owe.

I hunger the time for myself,
Seldom people see me rushing out with no reason,
There's always tomorrow what they said,
But for me,
I sometimes fear of what future give for me,
Is it the news that constantly becomes my greatest fear,
Or is it the day that i never open my eye again,
I am not that afraid,
I am just trying to give the present that i promise,
The one that i love and cherished,
For this certain reasons,
I want the time for myself.

The forever ticking minutes i refuse to count,
It only matters what have i done for the whole day,
Did i mend the pieces of my broken heart,
Ask forgiveness and forgave those that come and go,
Any more debt that i haven't paid in money or promises,
I was not looking back when i remember all this,
It was just a completion to deal with before i go,
Or before that time really comes,
I just want to be where i feel the happiest without any burden,
Just solving the matters and leave it behind,
With that i am happy for being selfish with the time of my own.