My Answer

My thoughts of you should never be beautiful,
As i see you so much more than what others saw,
Then why is it i seem to care for you and notice the you inside,
I should not let my art eye to look into your heart,
But with the gift that i have i am unable to avoid,
Of looking at your pain while reaching out for you,
And thus together like i have always know,
Suffer the same and happy the same,
Why is it i can not turn away and just walk ahead,
Like i always do but drop a little bit of hint,
When it comes to you i had to hold you so tightly,
Without knowing hold you very dearly,
In this heart of mine you sneak in your way like you always do,
Indeed i refuse to admit,
Flower that i did not bother to take care of nor fertilize,
Bloom ever so beautifully just like you in that heart of yours,
I am attached to you by the undefined bond.

I should not see you so attractive,
With the face that could scare people around you,
The harshness that ought to be as sharp as blade,
The you that people fear i become so attached,
So natural just to show you this tears of mine,
Surprisingly so you calm me down,
I thought of you when you're so far away,
To you i want so much and longed for,
My dear heart of mine plays trick that i can never guess,
Nor should i understand the meaning all behind,
Tell me the person who holds the key,
Have i fallen for you despite of who you are,
For i see you ever so shiningly and lovingly,
You care for me and hold me so much close,
This dear person of mine i understand it finally,
I LOVE YOU and DO YOU LOVE ME?

Husband Beliefs

If within this bare hands i can make you stay,
I'll not chase after glory nor power to hold you,
Deep in this heart of mine i have loved you,
To the day i put a ring onto that finger of yours i vow upon The Almighty,
Let this little wife of mine love YOU more than she love me,
For i want to be this husband who lead her to your path,
Your religion and within your road,
I want this oath of mine to protect her from lust that blinded others,
Y' Allah The Almighty,
For i am your humble servant,
And i too want to die in your right path.

Smile, Frail Heart

This pain is unbearable,
I pray for myself to be stronger,
More and more,
Although it may sounds greedy,
But please listen to me,
For i do not want to lose my sanity,
Not yet and not ever,
So by then i'll pray to The Almighty Allah,
To give me the strength to fight back this tears,
This pain,
This fragile heart,
So i may smile once more the day after tomorrow.

To be torn bits by bits,
Pieces by pieces after the mending begun,
I could not control of my own heavy heart,
Of the misty eyes that threatens me once more,
Please don't let me cry this heart of mine,
Just bear with me until i am stronger again,
Swallow the bitterness until i am mended,
A little bit more or probably longer,
I ask this frail heart of mine the same thing,
As the tortures begins again,
Repetitively i am tormenting myself,
Smile you just a little bit more,
And i'll smile again somehow.

I Forgive

Forever to be in misery,
Why the despair,
When i could reach my own happiness,
Not that i forget more likely i forgive,
And somehow time makes it magic,
Like the twirling wand that fairies have,
I seem not to remember a tiny bit of you.

The image are blurry,
But by that name i know you are my friend,
I wonder what cause of my heartbreaking that i could not remember,
The you who tries as your hardest giving me every sign,
Like i have said,
I did not forget but i forgive,
And yes my dear friend,
It seems there are certain wall are protecting me from remember.

It was not you whom i forgive,
But it was your friend that did to my heart,
Magically enough i could not remember you as well,
Your face are blurry when i try to recall,
And the heart that i knew i could not remember as well,
It was the event that is happening as i open the Pandora Box,
Not that i seem to forget until now i forgive,
And just like that i had to meet you like the first time again.

Singing Sorrow

My words they are spoken with tears,
Through everything sobbing in that very night,
A face wet with endless tears,
My pillow that soaked my every pain.

I speak of my pain that very night,
Of things that you misunderstand and you did not see,
Anger and hurt of what you didn't see,
We too have suffered but we never tell.

Of what am i too become now,
A monster that speaks the truth and rude little me,
How can i not say when you ignore our pleading,
While your money blinded you though this blood ties us together.

And so this heart pours it all,
Defending what is left and fights for it,
My sister i call you every now and then,
I'll fight you until my last breath of mine.

I am speaking the truth and i see it all,
This heart bears all the singing sorrow from our parent,
And thus that very night i cry it all out for you to see,
Of what pain we went through while you enjoy your own.