Heartbreaking Song

I am a heartbreaking song,
Singing in silence and alone in the dark,
Making the sobbing and teardrops as my melody,
Letting the tears be my fans,
As i create another sad tune to my song.

I am singing in despair,
The pain that i felt still throbbing,
While my heart keeps breaking into pieces,
Slowly i'm unable to match the puzzle,
As i loses my senses of loving nor be loved.

I am living a regretful life,
As i continue my journey forward,
For each and every step i take i keep looking back,
My tune of sorrow becomes my world,
Letting the remorse take over my life.

I could never sing another love song or happy one,
For i could never open my heart and give another chance,
I am the heartbreaking song singing to my heart,
Singing in regret and despair for losing,
Losing for something more important than my dream.

Dedicated to YOU (WHF)

You're leaving so I'm saying my goodbye,
I won't hold you back any longer,
Nor will i tie you with my every words,
It seems the word love have a meaningless view to you,
So i wish all the happiness that you ought to find,
When it seems like i have to mend this pieces of my heart.

I'm not crying anymore for missing you,
Nor will i even shed a tear cause you're leaving me,
As you turn away,
I'll be on my way also to never look back again,
From there onwards i can never call you or even sms you anymore.

Like an idiot i'm still checking my handphone searching for that one name,
I should longed forgotten about it since its been years since you've gone,
It was me who said goodbye and it was me also who wanted to be apart,
Yet it was like a spell i keep coming back to you,
Staring at your name on my phone for long,
Waiting for you send me some news,
Telling me that you missed me but yet it was all over.

That one day i was happy to receive the birthday wish that you gave,
But then came along the other new that i wish you congratulation,
Though it was such a heartbreaking moment for me,
I still know how to give you the best smile and shed a happy tears for you (not)
In time you have all the happiness that i once wish you.

Your wedding day tomorrow and i still lock myself in the room,
Writing this awful song dedicated to you,
Still i don't plan to sing at your wedding,
Since i'm just there to witness your love vows and never ending happiness,
Until then i'll keep wishing you smile always like you always do.

I don't plan to kill myself with Pepsi Twist that keep me addicted since you left,
Nor i even plan to keep on living this way mourning your gone,
Someday i'll get up again and face you straight like i used to,
This is just the way i am to not fall eventhough life sure is tough,
I'll just keep on hanging to the lives that i have for now.

I'm smiling now and laughing with what i have,
As years passes by i'm forgetting all the memories that i kept,
But i have never forget once how i felt that day and the love that lies within,
So i'm hoping your lives gets better with the new title that you held by then,
And tonight i'm singing this song for you.

I'll not lie when i say i still love you,
Nor will act normal knowing that you have someone in your life,
But then i'll not cry in grievances for i'll always smile for you,
So i'll keep on smiling until now that is,
It is not only for you but for someone who still cares for me,
I'll keep on walking this path of line that i have chose,
So i'm saying goodbye now to you,
I'm just dedicating this song for you.

P/S I haven't made the melody yet and i need someone to help me to make a melody for me and send it to this email aceice_ct@yahoo.com. I hope you'll kind enough and help me compose this song. I have one request though. I want a part where there's a rap. So can anyone help me with that? Please..... Let me know if the lyric is not good enough. Thank you...