Once Me

REMEMBER HOW I ONCE SAID,
I AM BUT A HEARTBREAKING SONG,
THOUGH MY LIFE FROM FAR ARE COLOURFUL,
THUS WHY THIS HEART OF MINE CHOSE CLOUDY DAY,
OF ALL THE SUN AND STARS THEY TALK ABOUT,
I SEE RAIN AND THUNDER AS A HIDING PLACE,
NO BRIGHTER SKY COULD COVER UP THE DARK NIGHT,
FOR ALL THE TIME,
ALL THE HOUR, MINUTES, SECONDS WERE COUNTED,
THEY SAW NOTHING BUT A SMILE AND LAUGHTER,
IS THAT ALL TO THAT, DEAR ME?
SHE LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER,
JUST LIKE THE INNOCENT CHILD WHO ONLY SLEEPS,
JUST LIKE THEM HAVING NO WORRIES.

REMEMBER THAT ONCE I TOLD THEM I HATE HOT WEATHER,
FOR IT COULD ONLY MELT ANY HEART THAT I FELT,
I PRETEND TO BE BLIND,
WHEN IN THE END I HELD MY HAND UP,
TO BE THE ONLY PERSON TO BE BLAME,
I FOR ONCE NEVER DID MOURN MY DEPRESSION,
SINCE I PREFER TO JUST SMILE HAPPILY THROUGHOUT FORCE,
IT WAS NOT A TORTURING THING TO DO,
JUST TAKE A DEEP BREATHE INSIDE,
LET IT GO WHEN YOU FEEL READY,
CAUSE I HAVE PROMISE MYSELF TO JUST KEEP ON GOING,
FOR LIVING IN THIS LIFE HAS NEVER BEEN CRUEL,
IT IS THE PATH THAT I TAKE LEADS THE WAY.

REMEMBER HOW I ONCE PREFER BEING ALONE,
SOME MIGHT HAVE BEEN HURT BY MY ACTION,
I HAVE SEEN THE EYE AND THE TEAR,
IGNORANCE HAS BEEN CREEPING UP WITHIN ME,
FOR I WANT TO CRY ALL I WANT,
LETTING THIS ANGER OF MINE LEAVE ME BEHIND,
FOR I LOVE THE PEOPLE AROUND ME THOUGH ITS PAINFUL,
SHOULD I GIVE UP THEIR LOVE TOWARDS ME,
THEN WHAT ARE MY REASONS TO LIVE AFTER THAT?
FOR IT SEEMS LIKE FOREVER THRISTING FOR THEIR HAND,
I COULD NEVER COMPLAINT THOUGH I VOICE OUT SOMETIMES,
I AM BUT IMPERFECT HUMAN BEING,
CAUSE THERE ARE TIMES I FELT LIKE TODAY WOULD BE MY LAST.

REMEMBER WHEN I TOLD YOU I HAVE A SECRET?
HOW I WANTED TO SHARE IT WITH YOU WITHOUT BEING THROWN OUT,
LOSING MY PRECIOUS YOU SEEMS LIKE THE BLADE THAT OUGHT TO STAB ME IN THE HEART,
SO HOW SHOULD I TALK TO YOU AND TELL YOU ALL THAT,
KNOWING THAT I CHOSE A DIFFERENT PATH,
WHERE EVERY DREAMS THAT I HOLD,
I CHANGED IT INTO RELEASING MYSELF,
I SURRENDER IN THIS PATH THAT I TOOK,
SO IN THE END I WOULD SUFFER LIKE I DO RIGHT NOW,
TO FULFILL YOUR EVERY DREAM AND LIVE IT IN YOUR MEMORIES.

REMEMBER HOW I ONCE SAID I LIE SO MANY TIMES,
HOW THEY BELIEVE IN EVERY WORD I SAID,
HOW THEY DISBELIEF THE WORD FROM TRUTH,
IT IS ONCE BEING WARNED,
BY THE MOST DANGEROUS POINT THAT ONE NEVER THINK OF,
SEE HOW SLY I AM THROUGH THERE,
THIS HEART OF MINE TAINTED BY THOSE LIE,
FOR THE BLACK MEMORY THAT I LEARN FROM PAST,
I STAND TALL AGAIN BUT ON THE WRONG FOOT,
SINCE FALLING IS NOT A THREAT TOWARD ME AGAIN,
LOOK WHAT HAPPEN WHEN NO ONE LOOKS AROUND,
I GAIN THE POWER TO CONTROL MYSELF,
AND BECOME THE POWERFUL ACTRESS WITHOUT ANYONE SEEING.




FOREVER REMEMBERING AND FOREVER LYING,
DID I EVER LIE TO YOU MOM?
DID I EVER LIE TO YOU DAD?
DID I EVER LIE TO YOU MY DEAR SISTERS?
IT IS A PUZZLE THAT SOME MIGHT WONDER,
SINCE THE WAY I AM WITH YOU,
ARE NEVER THE SAME WITH THE WAY I AM WITH THEM,
FOR IT IS A SECRET THAT I WOULD NEVER TELL,
NOT EVEN THEM OR YOU,
THIS IS HOW I AM LIVING,
I LAUGH WHEN I CRY,
I SMILE WHEN I FEEL SAD,
ANGER, DEPRESSED, DECEPTION, BETRAYED, FRUSTRATED,
(grin) I’LL JUST HAVE TO KEEP ON SMILING.
FOR YOUR LIFE IS IMPORTANT,
AND SO DOES YOUR HEART,
I’LL ALWAYS LOOK AFTER THAT HEART OF YOURS.

See How Money Talks

Did you hear?
How parents showered their love in a specific way,
Houses stand tall and exclusively with big garden around it (in a big cage)
Children given pile of golden notes on their hands,
Spending it in a way that they could never think of,
From the famous Mercedez Benz to jet plane,
House as big as a football field in a standard way (living with the dead)
Family vacation to the world famous and expensive places (but seperately)
Taking pictures with great poses (the fade away smile)
Eating dinner in a high class manner (sarcasm at each other)
Living out of love but a luxury life,
How could one not be satisfy with everything around them,
Even the children itself never bother about it anymore,
Tired being the puppet of the show,
We're the 'Happy Family' (but out of love)
Love?
(What?Love?Never heard of.)
Though the bond between family has torn apart,
Cheating man and wife, divorce and another chaotic live ruin,
Don't bother about it,
Cause money can buy everything,
(Though i thirst for love and attention)
This heart of theirs have become cold and frozen,
Sit back and watch,
The world famous family corruption is happening,
For this is a so-called show,
And i am just reporting what i have seen so far,
This is the money talk,
Right back at you to the reality of life.

In My Eye

Here in my world,
I create my own lullaby song,
Singing it to myself,
The melody that i make often from nature,
Though night does not feel long anymore.

Here's a black book that i kept,
It is not a diary nor a secret to hide,
But no one did bother to read it,
It does seems private and untouchable,
One could not help but wonder the mysteries behind it.

Here's the black box that i kept,
A treasure that i long collect,
It may be priceless for anyone,
But for me it is part of my memories,
For it took me years to collect lovely memories.

Here's the permanent seat that i always seat,
There i surf upon the internet checking email and facebook,
Full of password and the hidden me,
This keyboard that has been helping worn out,
For it has been my most precious seat in all places.

Here's the room that i always stuck upon,
It might be dull as the owner you see,
But it has a lot of secrets that i kept,
In the corner over there it all happen,
But i won't tell for now cause it's mine.

Here's the life that i have lead,
It wasn't all black and white for it is colourful,
I have my ups and downs for sure that is,
I have cried and laugh all together,
And i ought to keep it and share with someone one day.

A Reunion For Friends

It has been long years since we were apart,
Through all that years we never did kept in touch,
One has to wonder how wonderful to be seeing each other again,
While the other thought how much changes that would happen,
For even if i do forget the faces,
How would i easily erase the sad and happy memories together.

That one year we try to gather everyone,
Finding them has been an adventure that one conquer,
Some sweet talk and old memories being brought up,
Asking the whereabouts and how it has been,
Lastly but not least sending a wonderful message,
" Please come to the Reunion Party this year".

Though leaving the school life has been long gone,
The memories between them will never waver,
This excitement that are hardly to be control,
Through email, tagged, facebook and friendster word has spread,
Wanting to meet once again,
The reunion that we have planned way before.

I am looking forward to meet everyone,
Though in the end i cannot attend,
But i know there are part of my sweet memories will come,
On my behalf i send them their regards,
While i keep to myself and take pen and notebook,
I jotted down '5 more years to come it's my turn'.