Pain

The throbbing pain that everyone feels,
I can feel it to,
No matter how young i am,
How immature i am,
Sooner or later i will feel the same,
It hurt,
Yes, i do know as much,
The feeling of wanting to cry,
Pain in your chest,
The sudden heavy burden that you felt,
I do feel it too,
No matter how old i am,
Sooner or later i too will feel it.

Time has pass by,
Where my eyes are open,
With what the world taught me to do,
Just to survive the madness of the people,
I too feel the pain,
And there you're sitting there,
While folding the clothes,
Telling me your pain is much deeper than mine,
With only the very word,
I just felt the deepest cut onto my hurt,
Along with the pain that i didn't tell nor couldn't share,
I felt it for a long time,
Causing me speechless and just watch you folding the clothe,
While i hear another hurtful word that come out from you,
The shattered heart started to shatter again,
Just when i thought i wouldn't be so fragile,
I start feeling the same pain again.

There and just there i start to wonder,
Did you ever remember me as your daughter,
The only black sheep in the family who has been there for you,
The only one whose trying so hard not to hurt you,
I wonder if you ever see me,
See me and remember me well in your deepest heart,
While i struggle to gain your attention,
Just because the faith that you put onto my sister has lost,
Shouldn't i be given a chance to give you a new meaning?
I wonder about that,
Wondering and just wondering,
If you ever notice that my heart is breaking the moment you say that,
I, who was listening to your pain and disappointment,
Felt the hurt long time ago,
When i heard another breaking matter,
The smile that i try to do,
Kept on losing it's own feeling.


I was there when you needed me,
No matter how far i've gone to,
I'm always there just for you,
For you to bash your anger,
Your disappointment and along with your pain,
But then on this very night,
I realize you never saw me that time,
Each time i try to console you,
You never realize it was me,
It hurt,
Right here,
This very fragile heart of mine,
Seems to lost its shape again,
Unlike you who have someone to listen to,
I wonder on this very note in my hand,
Crying out the pain that i felt,
Without a shoulder to cry on.

If Someone is Watching

I wonder if someone is watching,
While i walk in the bookstore,
Searching happily for my favourite novels,
Laughing to myself when i had found it,
Talking to myself when i couldn't make a decision,
Standing there and staring the books on my hand,
Thinking which one should i get,
I wonder if someone notice it,
If there is,
Please don't let me be alone.

I wonder if someone is watching,
While i went to the restaurant and eating my favourite meal,
Sitting there just daydreaming,
Sometimes watching other people's reaction,
Smile to myself when i found it to be funny,
Just sitting there for a piece of my mind,
I wonder if someone notice it,
If there is,
Please lend me your shoulder if i do cry.