To the people, For the people

It was mysterious not a secret,
Not that i am ashamed to share,
Nor even a story that i refuse to tell,
It was the things that i let go and stripped away,
To become the one and only D that people would know,
How i can smile thoroughly even the past of mine,
Something more valuable and precious,
To the people that i love,
And for the people that i adore.

Not a history that they notice,
So i will smile and laugh all the way,
Eat all i want with books that i will collect,
My favourites and my interest have not bother other,
For as long as i manage to keep it within my space,
Works that i do without greed to follow,
Just sincere and the will to keep on living,
Just for something more valuable and precious,
To the people that i love,
And for the people that i protect.

Note to 'Them'

Then comes that day,
Where i hope it would come sooner,
When the world is spinning,
So does the karma that has fallen,
Something that they could not escape,
Something that they could not see,
In the past we are only painting faces with big smile,
The house is our stage,
The family is our audience,
What do they know about the pain that we felt,
What do they learn from the stories that they would not hear,
Every of them has their own voice,
Voices of dagger and voices breaking,
I can only watch by far,
Not that i could not help,
They are older than me that i could not touch,
Their pride and ego are all there in the faces that they hold up,
So what more than a timid me can do,
Beside telling the whole world about my trouble,
It was a shame that i wish to hide,
But what exactly do they learn when they see this,
I sincerely hope,
One day their hand would touch my name.

Regret

Like there's no tomorrow i would lead my life,
Keeping it simple and fun,
Throwing away the pain and the glory,
It was all not mine nor for me to keep,
As i know what i'm bringing Home,
Countless times it has been reminded,
Taught and were shown,
I have done this part of mine,
Now i need another leader to lead my entire life.

Guide me to the road that we know it's there,
Hold my hand ever so tight and walk me through,
I may have stray here and there in the past,
But please my dear special one,
Stay with me until the end of its time,
My redemption is nothing but a secret,
A sin that i have been regretting,
Now would you lead me to that road,
The only road that are meant for us to be in The Almighty's side.