As I Speak

Not to thin but might be big,
I am to accept the reality and harsh life,
Tormented by the names,
Endless of them to be the talk of the town,
If i could not face it all today,
I fear i might not show myself again.

It wasn't my intention to live this kind of life,
As i thought of drowning myself in my own emotion,
Astonished to know what i refuse to admit,
I see it now just how i see it then,
Could it be a little less hurting than not to know,
I can not answer for i am helpless for now.

I will make my comeback,
Probably even better than today,
Or was it next year i could not say,
For what it is i do know one for most,
I strike to win even with the risk i am losing.

A tie that i bound to keep,
And for it is i live to my happiness,
No more waiting when regret still follow,
Repent over and over again for the deeds that have been done,
I'll walk again, slowly this time,
For i know somewhere along i might fall again.

Prayer to Gaza

With my hands clasped together and on the ground i bend,
I ask and pray to Allah The Almighty of lists that i wanted,
Not the long list of shopping nor gadgets,
Or even my happiness that i had always ask,
This day and the day onwards i'll ask something else,
Pray something else,
If my heart have that little bit of pureness before it turns black,
Of the infection that one can not deny,
Of lust, power, greed,
The impossible things that made them suffer,
I pray in this heart of mine,
To let me always pray their happiness and reach for it,
To give them a part of my life that i am ungrateful of,
To be their parents of the little one if i could teach them,
Of peace i would talk more and more,
That pain if i may become their healer,
Can i just hold onto them O' Allah The Almighty,
Hold onto the bleeding hands,
Trembling due to ruthless bullets,
I hear them cry of the most painful that i can never forget,
These hands i grasp and will forever hold onto,
I pray for peace and sacrifice my happiness,
As i want to see them living the same life like i do,
For i do not want the little one to understand the savage of life too early,
When i wanted them to fly more onto their dreams,
I dare to all that and i will forever pray,
This is my PRAYER TO GAZA.

Heart for my friend

The docile eyes of hers that i couldn't resist,
Turns into an evil like her heart,
What have comes to her i couldn't reach,
As if it was me to be blame,
For i didn't see her pain earlier and save from the fallen.

Innocent i once used to know her back then,
Filled with just empty not warmth,
I dread the fact she dies slowly in front of my eye,
When i couldn't give her up i try to grab her,
If i am too fall i know i could bring her up again.

Her name haven't change but it does not have the same meaning,
For no longer she smiles like the sun,
Just plainly gloomy and her dark heart,
It was like standing at the end of the cliff i see her there,
I will forever call her name to remind her i am still here.

The beauty of her that stands the most,
It is still there and i can see it,
I prayed for this dear friend of mine to keep her warm,
To forever remind her i care for her,
Reach my hand like i grab yours and never let it go.

I yearn

I come to enjoy my nights,
The un-chaperoned lady who happen to enjoy the stroll,
By night with the lights of more colour,
With its excitement joy and entertainment,
I missed my intended but he's not around,
No finding that i want to discover,
If i may be so dramatic and romantic,
I should say let my knight comes to save my despair,
Take my hand and we are full of mischievous pair,
I dream of that romance but know that i am single,
I'm only making the life full of happiness that i see,
Others may name it pathetic,
If so my future knight of mine,
Make that in the nick of time meaningful to you.

The Anger

I am always scared,
Of things that bottled up in my heart,
I could have shout it out,
I could have vent out my anger,
My fury and all,
But for all that i could care,
For all that i still remember when i'm sane,
I am naturally like this,
Unable to make the feelings tell,
Just some childish act for some have thought,
I know of things i am capable of,
And i learned it all too well,
Could i be i was preventing accidents to prone,
As i mention by far,
I know it by heart that i'm a monster,
If i forgot who i am in the middle of clutter.

Share Your World

Defy not the heart,
Not when it is needed to be mend,
As static the time seems to you,
On my thoughts don't shut yourself away,
What you might not see and just pass by could be your happiness,
As dramatic as it may sounds,
As fairy tale that you didn't believe anymore,
I am hoping and praying at the same time,
That you would not fall so deeply nor close yourself so tightly,
For i still want to hold onto you as long as i can,
And as far as i can go.

For almost a lifetime than i could remember,
I know i learned something to share to you,
As i thought this would happen,
It's what they called life,
The bitterness,
The sweetness,
But this, dear friend of mine,
Let us not be a stranger no matter what crosses us,
Let us still be friends,
And introduce ourselves if one does not remember,
I begged of you not to leave,
For i treasure you as much as i love my family,
It is what they say my dear friend of mine,
When a bond is created,
It is not something that are easily breakable.

And so there are misunderstanding among us,
But should there be war to satisfy the heart,
Defy not the heart,
The nature of your heart that i know,
Full of you and nothing of the evil,
And i do have to admit there's a devilish side just far down,
But as long it is not fed by lust, hate and revenge,
I can always save you from the devastation,
I'll hold onto you until you can stand,
And if you do fall remember me of what i have said,
But if that still fails you,
Empty your heart and fill it with warm,
Don't shut it and never to the world,
When what comes to you are more beautiful than now,
Just beware and know it by then,
It is not forever but you can still cherish the warmth.

My Precious

And the luxury still can't tempt me,
When i still holds onto my treasure,
And truth to be told i wouldn't barter it,
Not for diamonds and gold,
For i am richer that way and safer this way,
No one ought to see what my treasure is,
Not in a chest and hidden away,
It is without a doubt the one that i love to boast,
Let the eye alone measure,
Let them alone notice,
For i would not tell nor bother to talk about,
I am without greed,
But i am protecting what's mine.

All the most that you have search,
A pirate to be called by those whom are near,
But it is not forever when they themselves cannot see,
Nor appreciate what it is that makes me smile,
More and all the more of my hunger with my own,
In truth it is more about pain and sacrifice this treasure of mine,
Who would want to dismiss all the dreams and let alone wilt away,
A pity they say but i could not just walk away,
I learned of the secrets and the hidden,
I should be blind and deaf for going away,
And this heart should be as cold as the Greenland,
But all in all i am me with this nature of mine,
Due to this i could not save myself i known it by far,
Let alone when i walk and hold onto this treasure all alone.