The One

Lately your confession troubles my heart,
I am hoping to give a denial,
But i cannot bear to watch you hurt,
Nor can i stand to lie to you,
Thus i run somewhere for me to rest,
As i could no longer accept the love that you gave.

Lately i am unable to open my heart,
Not even a single emotion i did let out,
My eye stare coldly and freezes the warm that you gave,
Your words seems unreachable to me,
No matter you sung your praises clearly as the blue sky,
I can no longer hear them nor respond to any.

Lately i dream of my romance,
Being held captive by your warm embrace,
Wake up to see you beside me holding me tightly,
Whispering the lovely word that flatters me,
Just like a rake you are trying to win my heart,
Patiently creeping onto my heart,
Not bother of knocking but steal this heart of mine.

Lately i see myself in your eyes,
For i could no longer believe it was true,
There you are with your way heading for me,
Reaching out your hand as you say the word,
The word that i try to erase from my life,
But when you enter,
With your arrogance and selfish way,
You told me that i belong to you and refuse any denial,
As always i could mask my own reaction,
When you bent down and whisper to my ear,
Saying "Love, i can see through you."

Dining table

What actually happen to us?
It felt so far apart though we live in the same house,
We could barely have dinner together,
Silence, awkwardness floats into air,
Turning the situation to tense atmosphere,
Where did it all go wrong,
To be eating alone and heading to the room,
While you were down there i was up here,
What could actually be happening between us?
Being so close but yet so far to reach,
Tell me something,
Could we sit around on the dining table like we used to?
I miss the days where crab become our favourite food,
Days of our life,
Where did we spent it to,
When we forgot what precious time went as we grow older.

It Has Been the Same

" I'll make you, your favourite food"
I've heard of it before,
It sounds so familiar and the last time i heard it,
Made my heart flutters,
But in just one second it tears up my whole heart,
Crashing it over and over again,
I know i should never lose hope,
But how can i keep doing so when it all comes in vain.

I was mad for the first time it happen,
Every year i dealt with the same thing,
The same line that i heard but only the venue was different,
The event was differ as well,
Yes, it put on a smile on me every year,
But as the time gets near,
There's always excuse running in my ear,
Stares that i got from others,
And all thats left for me,
Is nothing but a shattered heart again and again.

Is it wrong of me to say i'm not putting it into hope anymore?
The me who never learn her lesson for a long time has finally learnt it,
But then all i hear is your heart cracking,
What exactly do i have to do?
I who have waited years of the simple thing,
Have to work so hard to make you see me,
But as always,
You skip the one in front of you and move on to others,
How can i keep on going if i keep on hoping?
For a favourite food that i longed for,
I have waited so many years and keep on meding this heart of mine,
So tell me,
Is it wrong for me to lose hope for only this time of the year?