What??

What if i were to tell a secret?
A dark secret that could ruin the me today,
Whatever would happen to the day after tomorrow,
Will i be able to stand on my own again,
After my own clumsiness for opening the truth.

What i may think may not the same as it is,
It could turn out to be disappointment,
Either way round i'm ready to take,
But then it occurs to the unexpected thing happen,
I could not help but being a coward.

What my heart wanted has never satisfy those who are close,
It always hurting them and hurting me even more,
As my life keeps on rolling,
I realize i had nowhere to go nor my goal,
I feel so confused yet so lonely.

What if has been the same question enter before i sleep,
Now i'm just to scared to sleep unless i'm really tired,
For i don't want to think a question that has unbearable answer,
For i have been creating the fantasy life that keeps me comfort,
Whereas until now i am still well hidden.

What could possibly be hurtful than being the failure,
Though i didn't mean to think that way,
But the eyes that are following telling me the same thing,
May it be your closest stranger or blood ties,
I couldn't stop them nor explaining anything.

Stranger to who??

Should i tell a stranger about my chaotic mind?
When i should have told my family or friends about it,
But why is it so hard for me to tell them,
Not because i don't trust them or something,
It might have been because i know how they behave,
I prefer to listen the world of strangers.

I am not alone like i always said,
But i can't bear another long night that fill up my thoughts,
I grab hold on my handphone and like an idiot i stare at them,
Staring at the names of who i should call to help me,
And then i tend to switch off cause i can't bear to watch or hear my thoughts,
From there on i am feeling lonely when i shut myself up.

I have become a stranger myself,
Trying to solve my own problem though its tiring,
But i don't mind after so much thing happen in my life,
From what i see is something that i should cherish and hold onto,
Let it be painful and tiring but i can never give up yet,
Not when i feel myself a stranger to my own.

Back Then

There was time when we fight for food,
Just a bit of cracker and crumbs of biscuit,
As long we can taste the food though only a bit,
Neighbour boast the taste of chicken and shrimp,
While we just have a look and wanting some,
Mother pinched us, took us inside the house and close the door,
That night we dream of eating them.

Mother's heart is breaking seeing what we wanted to eat,
Though we cannot eat them at the moment,
We were just pleased the way it is,
We could wait, so don't cry anymore mother,
We really could wait no matter how long,
So let just eat whatever you're cooking,
Cause it was always the best food that we ever tasted.

Father just got paid and brought home chicken and fish,
At last we manage to eat chicken,
It does not matter if it were chopped into 24 pieces,
We still can eat it mother,
So don't you worry,
We might fight but that is just the way we are,
Your naughty daughters but yet you still adore us.

Though we don't have house,
It doesn't matter cause we still have this shelter,
Living in a government house is nothing as long as we're together,
We still live happily like anyone else,
So don't worry mother and father,
We still be able to survive it no matter what.

Years have passes by,
We can actually buy the cookies that we wanted so much,
Without fighting we eat it together,
We can eat the all the seafood that we envy for back in the old days,
Mother don't have to be sad anymore,
We will appreciate every moment of our life and cherish it.

Single Ladies

If lovers keep talking about the sun, stars and night,
Then what would the singles be talking about?
One might not think at all what they would be thinking,
It would be a surprise once you listen to what they say,
What they have plan,
Life becomes interesting event for them.

Did you ever heard about their ideal man?
It is not easy to get one but they always believe in it,
One wants a prince charming,
While some wants a warrior more or less a highlander,
It is not the money or title they are looking for,
But for the romance that they ought to have for the rest of their days.

Did you hear what they plan to do if they were fated to stay single?
When i say it's more fun than having couple you should believe it,
Cause it was not something small,
It is for the sake of their dreams and something to cherish,
They could travel everywhere and have various activities to remember,
It is what they called the freedom of being single.

Hear them when they talk about what their life,
It was even interesting than drama or movies,
How they accomplish what they dream of and all their downs,
It's dramatic for some but for them it was a lesson they learn,
They live no matter how hard life was,
Cause it is part of their chores for them to survive.

Some might wonder don't they feel lonely,
Deep down they all feel lonely but it is not the end of the world,
They still believe about someday,
Whereas there will be time for them to enjoy more than others,
It might not be surprising for others,
But it is a celebration and tears of joy that ought to be there.

The Protector

There are times at night where i could not sleep,
Where my heart aches searching for that one answer,
It was an endless night,
But i realize time envies my every moment,
Cause the next thing i know it was nearly dawn.

It was a bluff when i said i could live all alone,
In truth i hate being the only place without no one beside me,
As the pain keep on creeping my every night,
How was i suppose to face another night,
When it keep on showing the cruelty of the world.

I have to stop thinking,
But it is beyond me,
As i keep on turning to have my comfort moment,
It seems impossible as the thunder, lightning and wind keep threatening,
Threatening until there are times i wish there's someone for me.

I keep on hugging my pillow tightly,
I put every pillows that i have around me,
So i wouldn't be afraid during the night,
Nor even scared of falling down,
As i keep tossing myself from a restless night.

There is nothing that i ever wish for during the night,
But the warm that i ought to feel when i'm cold,
The embrace that would protect me from the thunder and rain,
There i wonder if i'll be able to find someone,
Someone to protect my heart.

I should have been able to survive even when i'm alone,
But it does not mean anything when even the strong one will fall,
I can feel myself shattered into million pieces,
No matter how i tend not to cry,
I still needed a protector other than me.